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Would you believe it if I tell you that I wrote MY FAVOURITE FLAVOUR in Ramadan, back in 2018? T^T 
          
          I think you won't... T^T

Ramazan Mubarak everyone! ✨️
          May this month brings satisfaction to your hearts and humbles your souls.
          
          ❤️

Sadly, my father has been passed away. Please remember him in your precious prayers.
          
          

Lost in the careness
          
          Somewhere in between taking care of others and trying not to lose your shit, you actually forgets about who you've been throughout the journey. You're just going with the flow. You're just trying to blend-in in every situation that has been happening. 
          
          You're just not being you all along the way.
          
          And that's massively hurting and healing at the same time, all along the way while wearing a mask that hides you very well.
          
          You just don't know what you are thinking, what you are saying or what you are seeing. You just try to go through it all and that's a hard yet harsh pill to swallow. You're just being in a void totally unknown to you. You just survive it, not live it.
          
          And throughout all that? You forgets to look after yourself. To people you seems and looks like you're found, but on the other side? You're completely lost. You're completely lost to whatever has been happening to you, or with you.
          
          You jumbles around several thoughts happening inside your brain. Mind confused to several different desires and needs that you ought to follow but couldn't, due to other reality checks happening with you while you're thinking about it.
          
          It just simply looks like you've accomplished a lot along the way. But trusting seeing the other side of the picture? You certainly miss few of those beautiful all-rounder things that you wanted to be happened with you throughout all that too.
          
          It's just, what seems to be completed? Is just not at all. Sometimes, we are all there till the finish line. Whereas sometimes? We think how well we're going to do it. 
          
          But a lot of times, it's all about how did we even  get here? 
          
          With ourselves being lost and hardly being found.

The guy who delivered my order today WAS SO HOT
          AND CUTE!!! T^T LIKE WTF.
          
          
          AND HE HAD A DEEP VOICE.
          
          
          OH MY FUCKING GOSH.
          
          
          Also, bear me im on my period so let me fangirl
          hard.:)

Its a long one, if you wanna read it you may or u can just ignore it.
          
          Being in the Gray area --
          
          Sometimes you're stuck between 'who you were' and 'who you are.' It's like you're always struggling to be 'who you wanna be?' There's always the gray area in between these two black and white situations, and people don't tend to realise how their critism effects your mind so much. People are always wanting you to be either the black, or the white, they never really understands that you want to be both of it. People just want us to change according to them and we always wants to be the mix of everything according to them. And that's how, we lose our sparks. And when we're trying to show the ways we love to be or the way we are? They never complies with it.
          
          We all know that people got smiles on their faces but their bitter-sweet lies hurts us the most.
          
          While being in "the gray area" we almost loses our sparks, and thats how we loses our true identity. We used to be confident once, but not anymore. We loses the way we used to be, and later when try to come back? When we try return or gain our lost spark back? We simply don't know how to do it.
          
          Despite all of that what people has always told us that we would never be enough? It has affected us. It does affets us, despite of all the things that we've gone through or still has been going, or will perhaps go through. But people will still NOT leave a wound being untouched by telling you or giving you eyes saying that 'you're not enough still.'
          
          That lost confidence leaves a mark on you and it gets hard to gain that confidence back sometimes. Too hard, after going through A LOT of emotional and mental survival already.
          

What happened to your insta?

Mommy

Heres a secret treasure trove for all my pretty furrballs. ❤️✨️
          
          Visit the link down below, enjoy and thank me later. :) 
          
          https://pin.it/5kFjKtyhN

Hey, furrballs. ❤️ hope everyone is doing fine. ♡ 
          I just came by to tell you all that, I've deleted my insta app and idk when I'll re-install it again. Maybe near never. 
          
          Anyways, I just wanted to say that those who've been following me on insta and if I haven't been active there? Then, please dont be upset. I just want to be away for a long while.
          
          If u ever wanna talk to me? You may always leave a message here on my mb ❤️ Or u may follow me on inkitt. Ive been a bit active there.
          
          A/N - EXCEPT SHARING UR STORIES, you may leave a message here anytime. ✨️