As we near the end of July, and subsequently enter the dog days of summer, I would like to reflect.
This summer did NOT go as planned for me. In the months leading up to it, I pictured something so glorified and serendipitous; I would embrace myself, spend lots of time growing emotionally and physically, eat healthy, recover from the events of the wintertime, and write.
Write. Hah.
I love writing. I feel that no matter who is reading my work, it is plain that I am passionate about storytelling. I love the feeling of sitting at my computer and belting out whatever comes to mind. I love picturing it, just like a movie, in my head. The process is grueling, and involves a lot of setting aside doubts and insecurities, but I love it. I burn for it. But I was not anticipating such burnout come May.
So you can imagine how it looks now, with me popping up after being radio silent for mostly the entire summer. Especially when I was building up such anticipation for Chosen Boy. So things didn't go as planned. Obviously.
In fact, a lot of things didn't go as planned. As aforementioned, I desired to grow emotionally. I daresay I did, but unfortunately was struck by one blow after another with physical health. The latest side effects, with full transparency, are heart problems. Heart problems! And here I was, smashing HIIT workouts without a second thought.
You can imagine I am a bit shaken by this, despite not knowing if it's serious or not yet. But this latest bout of issues has reignited what I lost when I burnt out. I want to write. And I love Harry Potter. And so I'll write about Harry Potter.
All of this rambling aside, I wanted to share with you guys that this winter, I will write my fingers off. Starting with finishing up The Potions Master (be expecting updates weekly again!), then picking up Chosen Boy again in late September, and then, hopefully, a new AU that I conjured up late one night last month!
I love you all so much. Thank you for sticking around.
