Need somewhere to vent or whatever so might as well be here.
I've been clean since before Christmas because I was just putting it off but then last night I just fucking did it and went way over board. By my count, over 20 stupid cuts lined perfectly on my thigh. Because fuck being mentally stable, right?
I just can't be happy right now. I'm incapable. Just.. everything hurts and I fucking deserve it.
I swear I've never been closer to killing myself than now.
I'm sorry, I guess, but I want to die.