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hi everyone,
          
          i just wanted to say that i’m leaving the roleplay. this isn’t an easy thing for me to do, but i feel like it’s the right decision. i know i’ve caused a lot of drama, even if i didn’t mean to. i’ve said things i shouldn’t have, reacted in ways that weren’t fair, and hurt people without wanting to. and i’m really sorry for all of that.
          
          the truth is, i’ve been struggling a lot behind the scenes, and sometimes my emotions get the better of me. that’s not an excuse — just an explanation. i never wanted to make this space feel heavy or uncomfortable for anyone. this was supposed to be something fun and creative, and i feel like i’ve taken away from that.
          
          so, to give everyone peace and space, i’m stepping away. this isn’t meant to be dramatic — it’s just me trying to take responsibility and stop adding to the tension. i genuinely hope things go well for all of you, and that the roleplay continues to be a great place for stories, connection, and joy.
          
          thank you to those who were kind to me. i’ll remember that.
          
          take care,
          barty crouch jr signing out!

hey everyone.
          
          just wanted to give a quick update. i’m gonna be taking a break from the rp for a while.
          
          something really unexpected happened, my mum came back into my life after 15 years, and i honestly have no idea how to deal with it. i’ve been trying to keep it together, but it’s a lot, and i need some time to figure things out.
          
          i know i haven’t been the easiest person to be around. i’ve hurt people, pushed others away, and said or done things i regret. i’m really sorry for all of that. i know i’ve been a shitty person like all of the time, and i hate that.
          
          i just need some space to breathe and try to make sense of everything. thank you if you understand, and i’m sorry again to anyone i hurt.
          
          i’ll be back when i can.

hi Barty! are you ok?

I am so sorry for the things I said on Nessa's book. I really don't know you, and I shouldn't have said anything. I am so sorry.

i actually can’t do this anymore. i feel like i’m constantly messing things up, and it’s exhausting. i know i’m mean and rude and a bad person sometimes. you don’t have to tell me—i already beat myself up over it more than anyone else ever could. i’ve apologised for the things i’ve said, and i meant it. i’m not proud of how i act when i’m upset. it’s like the anger takes over and i lose control, and then all this guilt crashes down on me afterwards.
          
          i stopped the drama yesterday by deleting my book—not because of what i said, but because i just couldn’t handle everything anymore. i felt overwhelmed and like maybe everyone would be better off if i just disappeared for a while. i’m sorry for that too. i don’t always know how to express what i’m feeling the right way.
          
          sometimes, i just get so angry and hurt, and i say things i don’t mean. i hate that part of myself. i hate feeling like i’m always the problem. i get it—i’m a rude person sometimes, but i don’t mean to be. i’m trying, even if it doesn’t always show.
          
          and if i was ever rude to you, i truly apologise. you didn’t deserve that. none of this is your fault. i’m just really struggling right now.

hey — just wanted to say i’m unpublishing the exposing book. not because what i said wasn’t true (because i still stand by it), but because the arguing, the drama, and the way people are turning this into a whole war just isn’t worth it.
          
          i made it because i felt like people deserved the truth, but i’ll admit: the way i put it out there wasn’t the best. i didn’t handle it in the right way, and for that, i’m sorry.
          
          this wasn’t meant to hurt anyone or to start fights — it was meant to be honest. and it sucks that it’s being twisted into something else.
          
          so yeah. the book’s down. i’m done entertaining the chaos.
          but just know i didn’t lie, and i’m not taking anything back — just taking a step back from the mess.
          
          if you’re mad at me for speaking up, fine. but at least i did it without hiding behind anyone else.
          
          also, to the person who said i “could’ve handled it privately” — i actually couldn’t. more than half the people involved in the roleplay don’t even have discord, so there was no way to reach everyone that way.
          
          this wasn’t about airing drama for attention. it was about making sure people weren’t left in the dark or misled. if i had a better way to do it, i would’ve — but this was the only way everyone could actually see it.
          
          i’m not perfect, and i don’t think i handled it flawlessly. but i did what i felt was right at the time, and at least i was honest.
          
          just wanted to clear that up.

@andromedablack- Thank youuuuuu!

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Evan, I am mean and I have embraced it and yes the date was amazing.

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