goresick

im honestly not okay and i haven't been for a while.

LilReaper_

@goresick hiii, reaching out as a friend. my mb is open if you ever want to talk. not about anything personal or deep, it can be about anything. just want you to know that.
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goresick

i lied. im not okay and i haven't been for years and i probably never will be. im a horrible person and i make myself look like the victim even though i am the reason everyone has left me. i hate myself and even more so because i know that i cannot change. i shouldn't even be alive for the last two years and im not sure if next week i will be here. i have nothing diagnosed so i don't know what's wrong with me, all i know that there is something seriously wrong but nobody is taking me seriously. i hate everyone for leaving me but how can i when im the one who made them leave in the first place?

rituals

twin, i'm not gonna lie, i stared at this for a while trying to figure out how to offer you any words of comfort, so i'll just say this. you will always be your own worst enemy. no one knows you like you know yourself, and you have to live with yourself all day every day with no break. it's normal to feel the way you feel when you're trapped in your head with your own feelings every day, and because you're allowing yourself to delve so deeply into your own self hatred, you don't have the capacity/ability to hold relationships because you view yourself a certain way. however, i can promise you that no one ( or a VERY small amount of people ) feels the way abt you that you feel about yourself. i don't know you that well, but from what i've seen, you're a great friend. so i just would try not to be too hard on yourself. i know it's hard not to be, but you have to try.
            
            ( sorry if this sounds messy and brainless, i'm running off no sleep and a dream <\3. i hope it was understandable enough though... )
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gutsfang

iva i'm here for u alright? i can understand what you're going through cause i'm going through it myself. take care i love you so much <3
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