"no matter how many times i think about making a nikaj fic, ill always scratch that idea. no matter how much i want to get up and write, ill always be lazy. its not just school thats pulling me away, its not just friends and family pulling me away, its myself. and i can only blame myself, why cant i just stop being clumsy and write and get better? its not like anythings coming to get me. im sorry nikaj, i failed you and myself. i failed everything, why am i doing this to myself? why did i create a wattpad account just to not post anything? im so tired, stop being tired. thats why, im always laying in bed doing nothing, always staring at my ceiling, always thinking about nikaj. you cant think about nikaj, youre not doing anything to show your love for them. you dont deserve them." i wasgiggling while writing this, hello guys i wrote this because i was bored, next fic maybe today or mayeb after 2motnhs 🐾🐾 oki bai love you