graviesluvr

don't normally post messages but I don't know where else to vent, soo.
          	
          	so basically my dad is an alcoholic, has been, never really was around because of his job, and when my parents got divorced he was more present and everything so that was good, but recently he's been relapsing and relapsing almost every two months, and I have an older sister she lives in another city so she can't really do anything about it, and my younger sister is only 14 and I don't want to involve, because I was already involved since I was like 12, and I know how it feels and I don't want her to go through that. 
          	
          	 so that just means that it all falls on me now, I have to be around him making sure he doesn't drink, and letting him know he has people there for him, but he just ignores it and makes me feel like I'm doing so much for someone who doesn't even want it. 
          	
          	when I talked to my psicologist about it, she said I should start worrying about myself, more than others (my dad and little sister) but it's just that I don't know how to, I've stopped taking his drinks off him, and it's just the same, but I still feel like I have so much going on and I just want to cry, idek what to do now.
          	
          	if I don't do anything, my dad will probably kill him self from like alcohol poisoning, and I'll be even worse, but I'd I do something, he'll get angry, and I'll be in an even worse mental state, so I don't know what to do.
          	
          	that's it, sorry for yapping

graviesluvr

don't normally post messages but I don't know where else to vent, soo.
          
          so basically my dad is an alcoholic, has been, never really was around because of his job, and when my parents got divorced he was more present and everything so that was good, but recently he's been relapsing and relapsing almost every two months, and I have an older sister she lives in another city so she can't really do anything about it, and my younger sister is only 14 and I don't want to involve, because I was already involved since I was like 12, and I know how it feels and I don't want her to go through that. 
          
           so that just means that it all falls on me now, I have to be around him making sure he doesn't drink, and letting him know he has people there for him, but he just ignores it and makes me feel like I'm doing so much for someone who doesn't even want it. 
          
          when I talked to my psicologist about it, she said I should start worrying about myself, more than others (my dad and little sister) but it's just that I don't know how to, I've stopped taking his drinks off him, and it's just the same, but I still feel like I have so much going on and I just want to cry, idek what to do now.
          
          if I don't do anything, my dad will probably kill him self from like alcohol poisoning, and I'll be even worse, but I'd I do something, he'll get angry, and I'll be in an even worse mental state, so I don't know what to do.
          
          that's it, sorry for yapping

graviesluvr

so hypothetically speaking, if you meet this girl and your both obviously interested so you send your friend to ask for her insta BC you have crippling anxiety, and she gives your friend the insta and one of her friends tells her she's going to tell her boyfriend so you and your friend look at eachother sadly but she still insists in giving it to you and tells yo that she has a boyfriend but not a girlfriend, but you're still disappointed and sad then a few days later she shows up at a little party in which you are playing in BC you're in a band and stays all the way thru your set and then talks to you all night and then says she really wants to kiss you but she shouldn't bc she's still with her boyfriend, then later you're still talking and have been for weeks and she breaks up with her boyfriend and then stops speaking to you, what would you do? hypothetically obviously

speaknowstan1213

@graviesluvr well i have had a similar situation happen to me same as you a have really,really bad social anxiety so I asked my friend to get my crushes insta and so she went up to her and she gave me her phone number not her insta but anyway we talked sometimes and i felt like there was somthing going on but i didnt know and then like i think 2 months after we started talking i confessed that i liked her and she said that she wasnt looking for a relation ship and that she had been pushing me away because she knew i liked her so then we came to the conclusion to be friends and we texted for maybe 2 weeks after that happend and then out of the blue she just stopped texting me sooo.......... 
            yeah i feel your pain
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noFOOKINidea

Hi.
          I hope you're accepting reading requests. I've started a new story "an anatomy of a wounded soul". It is a thrill/mystery teen fiction. 
          
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          I hope you take a chance to read the story. 
          
          Please do and leave feedbacks. 
          
          Thank you.
          Aditi.
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graviesluvr

@noFOOKINidea Hey, i know its late, but i just read the first chapter and its good, ill keep reading it
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