What is happiness? IS anyone truly happy? Why do we chose to follow happiness when it's just a chemical reaction. Why do we exist in the first place? Id there is a god why has the earth became like this. Also why is the universe so big. I mean wouldn't it make no difference whatsoever if the earth got destroyed? SO why don't we just live for self pleasure. Again with the pleasure is just a chemical thing. Are we all just truly on an abandones ball spinning into nothingness. And are there really good people out there. I mean even the people helping out the starving kids in africa do it because it makes them feel good inside. Basically like a drug. Either that or everybody is too afraid to go to hell. Meaning everybody only lives for self indulgence or to go tho so called "Heaven." If there is a god why can't everybody go to heaven. Only the people who worship him and feed to his constant narcissism. Everybody else gets tortured forever. Maybe this world is all a dream. I used to think that when I was a little kid. If I wake up It will be terrible and violent. Makes me want to appreciate life. But why should I appreciate something I never asked for? I mean I live in a world where everybody lives for self pleasure, how bad would waking up into a worse world be. Is this the bad world? Is this hell, a torture for a life I wasn't even aware of. Maybe this is the worst. Or even scarier, what if this is the best it gets. Why does any of this matter. Why does it matter if you cut yourself or die from a drug overdose. Are we all just parasites to the universe? Why does everybody just go to comic con or coachella, is it a distraction from the harsh world? Is it procrastination for your "Impact" or anything like that? Are we all that shallow? DO we lie to everyone and even ourselves about our questionable morals? Why does it matter whether you're alive or anything, Will your friends really miss you? Maybe my friends all just use me to look cool.