@grc22877
Hey. Its been a few years and this is kinda random lol but thanks for all the sweet comments and support you left on my works. I’ve recently logged back onto wattpad and its been a blast reading through all the comments i missed. I hope you’re having a great day! :)
Man I want to be such a comfortable person. I want you to see me come into the room and feel your breath come a little easier. I want you to have a trinket in your house that I got or found for you that makes you feel positively when you see it. Maybe not as big as a smile, but a soft thought in my direction.
I want to be silly and fun. I want to take you to the zoo to look at the penguins and fingerpaint with glitter and pva glue. I want to play and wonder and make you happy to be alive again.
I want to be so comfortable for you. With you. I want to be someone worthy of missing in boredom. Missing me isn't a worm in your stomach or an ache in your heart! It's an impatient child thinking 'when will the chrysalis open? I want to see the butterfly!'
Hi folks. I feel better now. I'm working on a certificate in art and design and just finished my first week. Hectic and awesome and literally everything I wanted it to be! But I'm posting here cause I wanted to talk about a thing.
I would call myself a nervous person, I'm a county girl and don't get out alot. But this art thing is in the nearest city. Little place by city standards but big to me. The other day I had an hour to kill before my bus, so I went to a café by myself and got a drink. Ive never done that before, and I just wanted to share because it felt so completely new and awesome! I've never gone to a food place by myself just to be. I'm always joined by family or friends which is kinda exhausting. But I just... Went to a café. And got an iced coffee with cinnamon and cream. And walked around the shops.
It feels so mundane when I say it out loud, but it was an entirely new thing for me. New this are lovely!
Well I hope y'all have some lovely days. Maybe see some big puffy clouds or smell that nice morning smell.
Either way, I'd like everyone to save a second like leftovers. Take it when you wish, and just be.
"Have a good sleep routine(sleep hygiene)."
Yeah well, that doesn't freaken, help me right now! How do I pass out? Like right now?
Nobody even sees these anymore. I might as well be talking to myself. I don't even. Why do I bother? I just wanna feel like I can control something that could change... What? The problem? What is the problem? Will I wake up tomorrow feeling handy dandy again? And what next? What about tomorrow? The day after? All seventy something years after that?
Will my life ever feel like a life?
@grc22877 No problem, I'm often up to helping people, I wouldn't mind talking with you more but you don't seem like you stick on here long?
Where the flip are all the mental health resources? I want an answer to why I'm sixteen and already tired of being alive. Not some garbage about loosing weight. Tell me why my brain will not shut up. Please. I'm so tired and it keeps going circles to the point that I can't even tell you what I want to eat. All my joy feels staged or pointless and I'm sick of being awake. I just want to go to sleep for a. Few days and wake up feeling OK.
@grc22877 Here's one that I found :) I'm not online much but I hope this helps in some way ♥ https://www.betterhelp.com/get-started/?utm_source=AdWords&utm_medium=Search_PPC_m&utm_term=treatments+for+anxiety_b&utm_content=136856867481&network=g&placement=&target=&matchtype=b&utm_campaign=16187455675&ad_type=text&adposition=&kwd_id=kwd-116696529&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIgoqEnNbVgwMVmIBaBR3YtAEKEAMYASAAEgK2K_D_BwE¬_found=1&gor=start-go
@grc22877 I mean, familiar. Life is too stressful. We humans pride ourselves as intelligent beings, but animals live happier than us at this point
Guarantee is such a fake looking word.
I stay up on my phone for hours because I have seven people in my house and the only way I can guarantee that my Criteria™ are fulfilled is if I wait for all of them to go to bed.
I'm reading back through my posts here and people's replies have disappeared?? Does that happen if they delete their accounts?
Good lard I've been dead since June.
Well hi. I'm tired so I'll make this brief. I left cause I fell off the side of the earth and landed in Pinterest, art, and Ao3. I'm all goods and I just got kinda bored with Wattpad. Also learned that I'm pretty much definitely nerodivergent.
Anyway protip, find yourself a nice, smooth rock that's comfy hold size for one hand. By some good old spray on picture varnish and do a few coats, or simply wash it good. Chuck that babee in the freeze. Now you got a cold smooth boi! To hot? Cold boi. Migraine? Cold boi! Feelin' bad? Squeeze the boi real hard. Bored? Slide em around on hard floor or smooth surfaces. Ten outta ten entertaining. Wanna confuse a guest? Prank someone? Make a fellow nd smile at your antics? COLD BOI! :D
That is all.