grc22877

Man I want to be such a comfortable person. I want you to see me come into the room and feel your breath come a little easier. I want you to have a trinket in your house that I got or found for you that makes you feel positively when you see it. Maybe not as big as a smile, but a soft thought in my direction.
          	
          	I want to be silly and fun. I want to take you to the zoo to look at the penguins and fingerpaint with glitter and pva glue. I want to play and wonder and make you happy to be alive again.
          	
          	I want to be so comfortable for you. With you. I want to be someone worthy of missing in boredom. Missing me isn't a worm in your stomach or an ache in your heart! It's an impatient child thinking 'when will the chrysalis open? I want to see the butterfly!'

Kittymasterofall14

@grc22877 
          	  That sounds lovely :)
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1moreFrenchFry

Hey. Its been a few years and this is kinda random lol but thanks for all the sweet comments and support you left on my works. I’ve recently logged back onto wattpad and its been a blast reading through all the comments i missed. I hope you’re having a great day! :)

grc22877

Man I want to be such a comfortable person. I want you to see me come into the room and feel your breath come a little easier. I want you to have a trinket in your house that I got or found for you that makes you feel positively when you see it. Maybe not as big as a smile, but a soft thought in my direction.
          
          I want to be silly and fun. I want to take you to the zoo to look at the penguins and fingerpaint with glitter and pva glue. I want to play and wonder and make you happy to be alive again.
          
          I want to be so comfortable for you. With you. I want to be someone worthy of missing in boredom. Missing me isn't a worm in your stomach or an ache in your heart! It's an impatient child thinking 'when will the chrysalis open? I want to see the butterfly!'

Kittymasterofall14

@grc22877 
            That sounds lovely :)
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grc22877

Hi folks. I feel better now. I'm working on a certificate in art and design and just finished my first week. Hectic and awesome and literally everything I wanted it to be! But I'm posting here cause I wanted to talk about a thing.
          
          I would call myself a nervous person, I'm a county girl and don't get out alot. But this art thing is in the nearest city. Little place by city standards but big to me. The other day I had an hour to kill before my bus, so I went to a café by myself and got a drink. Ive never done that before, and I just wanted to share because it felt so completely new and awesome! I've never gone to a food place by myself just to be. I'm always joined by family or friends which is kinda exhausting. But I just... Went to a café. And got an iced coffee with cinnamon and cream. And walked around the shops.
          
          It feels so mundane when I say it out loud, but it was an entirely new thing for me. New this are lovely!
          
          Well I hope y'all have some lovely days. Maybe see some big puffy clouds or smell that nice morning smell.
          
          Either way, I'd like everyone to save a second like leftovers. Take it when you wish, and just be.

1moreFrenchFry

This is beautiful <3 life is all about the simple pleasures :)
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grc22877

New *things
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grc22877

Nobody even sees these anymore. I might as well be talking to myself. I don't even. Why do I bother? I just wanna feel like I can control something that could change... What? The problem? What is the problem? Will I wake up tomorrow feeling handy dandy again? And what next? What about tomorrow? The day after? All seventy something years after that?
          
          Will my life ever feel like a life?

grc22877

I float around.
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FatedSouls2as1

@grc22877 
            No problem, I'm often up to helping people, I wouldn't mind talking with you more but you don't seem like you stick on here long?
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grc22877

@FatedSouls2as1 Thanks again for the suggestion.
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grc22877

Where the flip are all the mental health resources? I want an answer to why I'm sixteen and already tired of being alive. Not some garbage about loosing weight. Tell me why my brain will not shut up. Please. I'm so tired and it keeps going circles to the point that I can't even tell you what I want to eat. All my joy feels staged or pointless and I'm sick of being awake. I just want to go to sleep for a. Few days and wake up feeling OK.

Kittymasterofall14

@grc22877 
            
            Here's one that I found :) I'm not online much but I hope this helps in some way ♥ 
            
            https://www.betterhelp.com/get-started/?utm_source=AdWords&utm_medium=Search_PPC_m&utm_term=treatments+for+anxiety_b&utm_content=136856867481&network=g&placement=&target=&matchtype=b&utm_campaign=16187455675&ad_type=text&adposition=&kwd_id=kwd-116696529&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIgoqEnNbVgwMVmIBaBR3YtAEKEAMYASAAEgK2K_D_BwE¬_found=1&gor=start-go
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FatedSouls2as1

@grc22877 
            I mean, familiar. Life is too stressful. We humans pride ourselves as intelligent beings, but animals live happier than us at this point
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