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black tar was one of the books most written from my perspective during my youth. through this account i have grown from a 13 year old teenager with stick straight brown hair & glasses to a barely adulting, recovered 21 year old. i have found my voice, & saw my passion for writing soar like it never had before. i had found a place where my stories weren't just written down, but were seen by others. i wanted to thank all 4k of u that are still here. i feel the very same way every time i look at the reads for "losers club", "teenage dream" "misery" & the rest. my heart may not be etched into each of those fandoms like it was in the golden years of 2016-2017, but my body aches for it in some way every day. 
          	
          	around covid, my love for writing disappeared. i don't know if we blame the pandemic, i don't know if we blame my weed habit becoming a lifestyle that same year, i don't even know if we blame me falling out of love with it. i blame the fucking mind. what do you mean i haven't been writing until my heart's content anymore? what do you mean i don't feel every storyline in my bones? what do you mean that now, i go to work. i come home. i find time for my little mundane tasks -- but none of those are writing?
          	
          	i still do not fully understand. i am constantly returning to this website, to this profile, to pore over my works again & again. but everytime i do return, i am reminded by how much love has flowed throughout my time here. i have always been a person for nostalgia, & all of my middle school & high school memories in one profile is definitely a high for me. 
          	
          	i love u all. i love writing. i hope to find it again someday. maybe not now, maybe not in a few months, but christ i am trying. thank u for giving me a platform, though it may be a small one. every single writer is so important, & i am so proud of anyone who decides to make their voice heard by others for the very first time. 
          	
          	i'll be back in another year! (jk. u guys know i'm unpredictable). 
          	
          	✧˖°. chanel

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grcves

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black tar was one of the books most written from my perspective during my youth. through this account i have grown from a 13 year old teenager with stick straight brown hair & glasses to a barely adulting, recovered 21 year old. i have found my voice, & saw my passion for writing soar like it never had before. i had found a place where my stories weren't just written down, but were seen by others. i wanted to thank all 4k of u that are still here. i feel the very same way every time i look at the reads for "losers club", "teenage dream" "misery" & the rest. my heart may not be etched into each of those fandoms like it was in the golden years of 2016-2017, but my body aches for it in some way every day. 
          
          around covid, my love for writing disappeared. i don't know if we blame the pandemic, i don't know if we blame my weed habit becoming a lifestyle that same year, i don't even know if we blame me falling out of love with it. i blame the fucking mind. what do you mean i haven't been writing until my heart's content anymore? what do you mean i don't feel every storyline in my bones? what do you mean that now, i go to work. i come home. i find time for my little mundane tasks -- but none of those are writing?
          
          i still do not fully understand. i am constantly returning to this website, to this profile, to pore over my works again & again. but everytime i do return, i am reminded by how much love has flowed throughout my time here. i have always been a person for nostalgia, & all of my middle school & high school memories in one profile is definitely a high for me. 
          
          i love u all. i love writing. i hope to find it again someday. maybe not now, maybe not in a few months, but christ i am trying. thank u for giving me a platform, though it may be a small one. every single writer is so important, & i am so proud of anyone who decides to make their voice heard by others for the very first time. 
          
          i'll be back in another year! (jk. u guys know i'm unpredictable). 
          
          ✧˖°. chanel

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grcves

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thank you so fucking much for 4k i love all of u more than words can say. my mental health has been declining and motivation has too, but hopefully i’m trying to gain some of the love i once had for writing back. i love u!

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@cvpids-thank you so much!!
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@grcves ] congratulations!<3
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