Hey guys it’s Grell~

Reply If your friends don’t take your self hating comments seriously! Or the fact that you constantly say you want to jump off something and die!
          Oh wait! No one actually cares about my posts on here! You guys probably are laughing at these! “Haha, it’s so funny how this idiot hides away their self hate into a wattpad account! This is an app for books!”
          
          I know, no one actually cares here, and that’s the point!

Lol, I haven’t touched this account in a while, I’m gunna delete my book. It’s stupid and the world doesn’t need to know my feelings in the first place. 

It’s been some time since a tear slid down my face

I hate myself, I hate myself in so many ways, though my friends don’t know

Guys, SUPER important message, if there is some fanfic that starts with “The” and ends with “fic” DO NOT read it, it is usually 3 words and the docs are scarring, like, extreme scars in your brain forever. And I will find and stab anyone who named any of the fics in the comments, and when I say stab, I mean stabbed until you are no longer recognized as human, long dead. 
          
          
          
          And I fucking read 2 of those damned fics today and I need special help, I keep coming across these

This does not concern the few followers that I have, only one, they know who they are, I just wanted to say hi, just tryin to take my own advice....and talk when I need to
          
          Plz answer

I’m not dense, you just think I am so I’d have more of an advantage in the future, but sometimes I hate that people think I’m dense and oblivious, like, apparently, my mother apparently
          
          Were aren’t oblivious 
          
          We can tell

It takes me a while for my mind to funny understand something sometimes
          
          I mean, when a beloved family member of mine died
          
          I didn’t cry
          
          I felt awkward because my entire family was crying
          
          And my the time they stopped
          
          It was maybe around 5 minutes later
          
          Was when my tears started to flow
          
          That’s when I noticed
          
          My mind takes some time to fully process things
          
          Like death
          
          And I’m very sensitive about that subject
          

People don’t notice but I’m a very very observant person

I truly believe I will be one to die at a young age