grither55

@grither55 I see, I've actually been here since covid, and I stumbled across your work, which I really love! Each character you have portrayed, I really enjoyed it!! Sorry it took me very long for me to finish it since I keep rereading it before I want to read the end of it. When I heard you talk about your condition, I kept hoping for you to finally get what you are looking for. No one deserves to get this condition 
            
            Am not saying that. Oh, you should stop writing and rather think about your health! I do not know about you, and we are just a random person on the internet that I discovered your work. I'm not sure if you want to read this, but continue writing what you love. If you love writing, continue it!! If it helps you from all this pain, then continue! And we will wait! It might be wishful thinking since that kind of person. hopefully, you get the answer you wanted 

@tabi_nabi Hey again, as you may have read at the end of the chapter I have not been well and I have not recovered from my chronic condition, it has gotten even worse. But I will be going to Duke in NC in a few weeks for treatment in the hospital. The note at the end of the chapter explains everything. 
            
            But the doctor thinks I may have high pressure in my brain which could explain why I have had 24/7 head pain for six and a half years. They are going to drain fluid from my CSF in my spine for at least five days, and if it helps, then it means that it is my problem, and they will then set me up to get a shunt installed in my head which if correct would make my pain go away and give me my life back.
            
            I am hoping with all my being it is the answer and that I can get my life back this time. I appreciate your words, and hope to have good news to tell when I come back. I can only hope.

@TayAstra2005 Hi, I have not been well hence why I did not update in a year, I am still not well, but I just posted an update. It might be the only update in a while again, I will have to see if I get better so I can return to writing more regularly before I can post regular updates again.

@mariaa74allmonkis Hello, sorry for the late reply. Unfortunately, I am not well. I went to Philadelphia recently, and I was hospitalized for a week, and I got ketamine infusion for my chronic pain.
            
            I went in with a ten out of ten with pain, it reduced the pain down to a three, but the pain shot back up to a ten when they unplugged the ivs.
            
            Now I have to go back in three months to try again and see if the pain relief sticks the second time around.
            
            Long story short, my pain has gotten so severe I can't function anymore, and I am not well because the pain relief vanished after they took out my iv.

@Claaaiiireeee Thank you. I appreciate it. I can only hope that I will be able to at least tell people soon that I am feeling significantly better, and then in time also be able to say that it is completely fixed.
            
            I am trying to have hope. It is hard to keep hoping when I never get any relief and it is this extreme. But if the ketamine gives prominent relief it will be easier to have hope.

I know fully well Author that you aren't saying it as a sob story, I am hopeful, I really am, that doctor of yours is already doing so much, I just know you'll get better sooner! 

@Claaaiiireeee Hello, as you know by my update and the comments I just responded to there has not been much progress.
            
            The main progress is that I will be traveling for hospital ketamine treatment this summer.
            
            And of course learning about how many doctors my neurologist has been calling.
            
            It has become quite alarm because I always had a good appetite even though I have had chronic nausea for years. I could still eat. In the last few months it has gotten so bad I can barely eat food because I feel like I am going to puke eating it.
            
            I have been surviving mostly off of liquid nutritional drinks because it is all I can handle.
            
            And I don't mean like I am trying to starve myself or anything like that. I mean the nausea is so extreme that it feels painful eating solid food.
            
            I think it has something to do with the extreme pain in my eyes, neck, head and ears. The worst change was when the ear pain became constant. I think the constant ear pain is a large part of why I am in so much agony.
            
            I am really hoping the ketamine takes the pain down a great margin because I can't continue not being able to eat food.
            
            So, yeah. I am not well. I am not saying that because I am trying to tell a sob story. It's just the truth. But hopefully it gets better. 
            
            I hate how complex my condition is, to the point where so many treatments yield no relief. I have been told by many doctors that this is very rare for nothing to work.
            
            I fear that nothing will work and I am stuck like this forever.
            
            I try not to believe that though and I am trying to be hopeful that the ketamine will deliver me the pain relief that I need this summer.
            
            It's my last option right now there is a great deal of worrying on my mind if it will give me back some quality of life or not.
            
            Anyway, I hope that you are well or at least better off than me. You stay safe as well!

@Claaaiiireeee No problem. And I am glad to hear that you are well, and I appreciate you thinking of me.

Thank you for responding Author, I am doing a bit well on my side. Was just checking on you since your last update. I just know I'll enjoy the latest chapter. I can only hope your doctors will treat you sooner! 

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