@gryglxiest
the blue month has come for the 19th time,
and my mother, for the first time as long as i can remember, wish me a happy birthday.
said i don't need to overthink about that problem i hid from her, she knows it .
but why didn't she ask? she didn't talk about it either,
she isn't mad at me, doesn't even judge me a bit.
she just came and took a half of the weight off my chest.
of course i'm not thinking abt something useless, ma
i'm too busy with 'what should i do to keep my self alive?'
it's funny how the song ended with
"you'll be visited by sleep
i promised you that soon the autumn comes
to steal away each dream you keep"
sounds like my situation right now