imscaredofheights
What if we just became penguins?
guyslistenitsnot_me
imscaredofheights
Hey my Airbuds is Asher.739 idk if you use Airbuds but you should download it and add me because it tracks your music and songs and yeah
guyslistenitsnot_me
I never dream anymore. But tonight I dreamt we met, and you met my friends, and nothing had gone wrong, and you didn’t leave and I didn’t either.
I don’t mean to come across as hung up on you. We haven’t talked in a year. But I can see your messages. There are still restrictions, so I can’t read them. But I see them. I see them and I know you’re okay. Keep being okay.
I know now that I did everything wrong. I answered every question with the wrong answer, and I didn’t love you right. And I’m sorry. I wish I could say this to you personally but it’s all being watched. And I can’t risk losing what little I have.
Melodramatic as always, am I right? Anyway, I guess all I’m trying to say is I’m sorry, and I miss you, and please keep being okay.
imscaredofheights
@guyslistenitsnot_me I can promise you that I’ll never stop missing you. You’ll always be the one person I connected with on this deeper level. I’m glad we can talk here and yeah, the barriers suck, but someday they won’t be there and someday we’ll get the life we wanted. Ps, I will always love you. I hope you know that.
guyslistenitsnot_me
I’m glad everything with your dad got smoothed out as well as it could, I’m happy for you. And I don’t think it’s crazy. I hate that we’ve always had barriers between us, and I don’t even know how to handle the fact that we’ve never been without them. I love talking to you, but somehow it feels like a weight on my shoulders when we talk through all these barriers, with everything in between us. One day it’ll all work out, I know it, but for now it just… hurts. Miss you, and missing you, and missing you, even while we talk. Forever and always.
imscaredofheights
Is it crazy that I still check almost every day? Still save almost every single playlist? I’ll be back down there in February if we are somehow talking through something else by then. And it’s okay with my dad, our dynamic got better and even though it’s been hard, I’m happy i got that better relationship with him. I’m glad I get to talk with you again though. I’ve missed you since the day we stopped talking. Forever and always.
TrixOnWeed
Heyyy I have a question.. what happened to your work "meant to be?" ? Idk maybe it's just my wattpad but I was reading it and out of nowhere Wattpad says that it was deleted :')
imscaredofheights
Email me?
lawn_jbm33
I remember reading your fanfic right after I got Wattpad, and now I think it’s funny I’ve surpassed you in followers.
guyslistenitsnot_me
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TW: domestic abuse
So guys, you might have noticed that I just took UBYI down. I know I am late to addressing this, but I really couldn't post anything for the first few days because posting anything on the situation really wasn't at the top of my priorities list being that it took a long while for me to process everything as is. As you likely could have assumed, I removed UBYI due to wilbur being a confirmed domestic abuser, and the fact that I simply do not feel comfortable keeping a story published with him as a main character. Fuck wilbur soot #SupportShelbySquad
guyslistenitsnot_me
Hey, as some of you might know, I'm going through and editing Meant To Be and Unmarked By Your Insanity (still not married to the name on that one, and I'd be totally open to any suggestions), and I just wanted to say that the most recent republished part of mtb is a special one :)
DinoLoverRIP
Ok this is super random but I’m irl friends with @imscaredofheights and our whole table at lunch calls you Florida Boy
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It's story time--
Anyone else reject your friend's invitation to a dance because it makes you uncomfortable to think about liking them? Anyone else get scared they're going to hate you for taking it like that, even though they meant they wanted to go like friends, because they don't like you like that anymore? Anyone else going to fucking cry when you see them tomorrow?
Couldn't be me, I wouldn't cry because they probably actually hate me, or because no one else is going to like me like they used to, or because I hate myself and my life. I'd never fucking cry about that, I wouldn't work out until my ribs are bruised because I can't handle how I look. I wouldn't look in the mirror and nearly gasp because this //isn't// how I thought I looked when I felt confident earlier. I wouldn't cry because I have plenty of friends but I don't know how to trust any of them. I wouldn't cry because I pull shit like this and rant about my problems to people who don't care.
Because I'm smarter than that, right? ....right?
guyslistenitsnot_me
@imscaredofheights Thanks, I love you too. You scared me for a second with the username change lol. I hope the Nateli thing will get me through the week because I'm trusting you on the hilarious bit. Let's just call it good luck and cross our fingers lmao
imscaredofheights
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@guyslistenitsnot_me I love you. Plan B, meet this awesome trans dude hopefully though whatever person that is cool is fine at the dance and keep cutting your hair shorter until it's like a pixie cut and in reality your parents can't do shit if you do that, just try to talk to you about it. But keep your head up and just try to make it through stuff with a positive look on everything. I'm sorry this is the shit you're going through though. Just be positive and within every conversation just say Nateli (Two guys in my grade that are probably gay ((Nate + Eli)) that are also in my gym class. Don't worry just believe that it's hilarious.)