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My other profile: @fycki__ 
          
          Just announcing this makes me feel a little sick because this is… I don’t know how you all will respond to it. Simply put, my writer buddy motivated me to step out of my comfort zone. I was so envious of her for being so in love with her original characters that I wished I wasn’t so attached to fanfiction. For three years I have been non-stop writing fanfiction and always failing at trying to make my own original works. Now I believe that I’m on my way to publishing my first story on my original stories profile. It’s still far from being able to publish as I’m only a quarter of the way into Chapter Two—but I FEEL that I am going to succeed. 
          
          For the past couple of weeks, I’ve fallen in love with my main characters and they make me want to fucking CRYYY. Colton is a troubled and angry grump while Zayne is often judged too quickly by his appearance and overall structure when he is, in fact, the sunshine golden boy. Of course, to make this story more engaging, both have troubled backgrounds. It may be a little too much with what I have in store, but it all comes together in the end. 
          
          Anyway… with that said, I’m going to try and stray away from fanfiction. If you want to follow my journey with my original works, follow the profile I mentioned above. 
          
          Love you all, stay healthy and happy <3

I’m going to start over and go on a hiatus for a while. Don’t worry about any of the ongoing stories when you see that they’ve disappeared. I will eventually get back to them when I’ve had a chance to relax and go one story at a time, or you may see them very later on with a new style to them. The stories that are going to be unpublished are Spoiled, Devil’s Angel, and Seraphis (all of which are ongoing). I’m only doing this to ease the stress I have put on myself and I have the right to put myself first. 
          
          Please respect my decision. <3 
          
          I don’t know how long I’ll be gone, just however long it takes to get myself back on track. If anyone wishes to speak to me, my Discord username is in my bio ^-^

My series of rewrites will occur in this order:
          
          1) Devil’s Angel (Devil’s Heat)
          2) Diavolo (Mafia’s Boyfriend)
          3) Amore (Mafia’s Husband)
          4) Dazed (Hypnotized)
          5) Executive Treatment (Mr. Iwaizumi)
          
          All five of these stories will be in or around the genre of dark romance, except for maybe Dazed since they’ll be in high school. Since I don’t work and don’t have a life, these rewrites won’t take too long. Unless writer’s block and imposter syndrome make their way with me, then it’ll take a while.
          
          In case you’re wondering why I’m doing rewrites—there is one simple reason. I’m burnt out from coming up with new ideas. They don’t stop pouring in, they never stop. Which is why I’m so tired. Writing something completely new drains me and I eventually lose focus and motivation for that new idea, regrettably. I’m almost completely sure that it stems from my ADHD which has worsened over the years. But rewrites will be easier since I know the general premise and can add new things along the way. Devil’s Heat and Mafia’s Husband are my most viewed stories and they deserve a glow-up, don’t you think? As for my other stories, I believe they also deserve one and I’m hoping their rewrites get more love.

I know, I know. Fucking sue me. But this couldn’t wait, because I have been spending all my time writing this. I am still taking a break from my other projects, though I will alternate between the three whenever the time is right. Now, Devil’s Angel is technically a rewrite of Devil’s Heat but it’s an improved version. !!NO, I AM NOT GIVING UP ON SPOILED AND BBD!! I am simply exhausted from those stories and so I temporarily moved on to something I’ve been anticipating for months. Now that it’s finally happening, I can relax. 
          
          If you read Devil’s Angel, please remember to vote! It would seriously help me out a lot! <3

Updates on Spoiled and Bound by Dragons may be slow, but I’ll publish when possible.

Bound by Dragons is causing me so much mental distress, unlike any story I’ve ever written. The anxiety that comes with posting every chapter is killing me and knowing that not so many people are interested—it makes me feel worse. It probably has to do with the fact that I’m afraid of being bashed for MY DECISIONS, for what I had planned from the very beginning. I’m afraid of people forgetting that this fictional world does not exist, the characters do not exist and yet get so attached to these fictional characters. Yeah, it hurts when a character you love gets killed off or is hurt by the author/writer. But that was ultimately their decision and some people get so upset and hate on the writer for what they wanted to do, how they wanted that scene to play out. I’m not saying anyone has done that to me per se, just that I’m afraid it will happen. 
          
          I am an anxious person, so much so that I can’t do anything without fearing the worst possible outcomes. Even being told what to do in specific terms makes me so overwhelmed that I freeze. I used to think my fight-or-flight response was broken, but it turns out that freezing is just another response to fear. So much is wrong with me and this fucking story is driving me to insanity because I am terrified. Posting a new chapter makes me overthink how people will react to what I have done to the characters. This genre or whatever you call it is meant to be violent and cruel, it’s medieval fantasy. Characters die, animals die, and there is so much brutality. 
          
          If I can’t get over this fear, then I am removing Bound by Dragons.

I have no right to be giggling at Chapter Nine of Bound by Dragons. I just KNOW some of you will absolutely despise me for what I’ve just done

Hello, my lovely rays of sunshine! <3
          
          I’m not going to sugarcoat it. Spoiled is taking so long to update because I’ve hit a roadblock—it has NOTHING to do with being out of ideas and not having the motivation. Future scenes I am so excited to write keep me going, but the struggle still stands. Staring at the blank page of Chapter Eleven is so damn intimidating, and no matter what I decide to write, my perfectionism gets the better of me and so I abandon whatever that idea was. Plotting seems to do jack shit as well—nothing is a good idea to me. 
          
          If anyone has ANY ideas to help this block in the road I’ve encountered, please help me…
          
          On another note, you may have noticed a missing story on my profile. Tangled Emotions was removed for two reasons. 1) IwaOi just isn’t for me anymore (still love them tho, just meant in terms of writing). 2) Something fishy appeared in my Google Docs on the profile I used to write the story. Won’t go into detail about it, but a document was shared with me by an email I am not at all familiar with. So to keep myself safe, I decided to forget the story and stop writing on that profile altogether. 
          
          Anyway, I hope you are all doing wonderful and are staying healthy. Hopefully, this block will resolve soon and I can get a chapter of Spoiled out!

Boop!
          
          You have been booped! do the same to 20 other profiles and let chaos ensue!!
          (You don't have to, sorry if i caused any trouble)

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