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oneshot anyone?

firat time for a long time for this typa stuff
          
          i got a 39°C fever and my eyes see yellow, ts ain't funny gng

yeah i think real life burnout officially ended my writing and mental. shit ain't too good to me rn but im still alive, that counts for smth.
          
          life's been fine, tbh but relationship-wise? im not doing good mentally. its been this type of thing where i know i have to voice out things i dont like but i just cant. it doesnt feel right to tell my partner what i dont like her doing, even if its with family. ESPECIALLY with family. she and her cousins just got together again and they were drinking just earlier and ive never been a fan of vices. but im not the type of person to make demands on someone else for myself. i cant bring myself to tell her that i dont want that, i dont want her to do that. but my fuckass mentality says that "give her freedom, and be constant. she can do whatever she wants, she knows the consequences... probably, hopefully." and its making me feel heavy asf. 
          
          idk anymore bro, im holding on to myself but my mind and body are wavering. i know that the people reading this are probably saying but i cant. ive shown her that im always happy, unbothered by whats going on, but i cant let my guard down anymore ever since my previous relationship. my first relationship was too bad for me and it tainted me to the point of trusting no one, not even myself. its just hard. idk anymore
          
          thanks guys, and this isn't the "thanks for everything" type of letter... hopefully 

im taking down the oneshot book for now
          
          planning on revising or just completely changing the way i write now but i won't take down my other books
          
          hopefully by the end of next week i could deliver the thingamajig im working on rn and so far, it feels like its gonna reach the 10k mark on how im writing it but dont quote me on that, it might only reach 8 or 9k depending on how slow i want it to be
          
          but yeah, happy reading to y'all 

i need ideas chat

what up chat, been boring asl
          
          can anyone give me an idea so that i could possibly write smth (ion know if i can run a full-fledged story but imma try my best tho) aight bros, thanks
          
          Ciao~

damn. haven't even opened this app since i last opened it. i just wanted to give you guys an update even though im probably considered a ghost now. 
           
          life is being life, as always. it's hard but im still holding on and all that motivational stuff. it's just messy asf and i can't seem to get a hold of my situation, you feel me?
          
          but i digress; regarding updates on my books, you should NOT expect anything for a very very long time, maybe even permanently. i've lost my  spark as a writer and frankly, i don't have the motivation to keep writing. as much as i wanted to further my books and continue my plans, i don't have the mental capacity nor do I have the discipline to keep up. 
          
          i won't be gone forever since ill still be around, but only as a reader. lastly, to anyone who wants to use or take ideas from my current books, just tag me so that i can read what you've done to expand my ideas, and to know that someone could possibly take note and use my ideas even better than i could possibly do is actually very fulfilling.
          
          
          p.s. i highly recommend trying to continue or make a better version of my rei book. best of luck to whoever does that!
          
          
          
          Ciao~ 
          haerinieeeeee out

Hey y'all! Sorry for being super inactive these past few months. Life has been doing alright but I can't keep up with my new school's schedule. I know that it sounds like an excuse but it's just been so hectic that I am not able to write consistently. You know, monthly events, exams, projects, etc. I hope you're all doing swimmingly cuz I am barely hanging on to my sanity. I'm getting burnt bro 
          
          Love y'all and you guys can expect a release a few weeks from now.
          
          Much Love,
               haerinieeeeee

NEW CHAPTER IS OUT EVERYONE
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/372272617?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_reading&wp_page=reading&wp_uname=haerinieeeeee

should i make a teaser? got inspired by other writers tbh