hahajaja02

Mujhe Sidharth ki bahut yaad aa rhi hai. 
          	Koi use please wapas laa do. 
          	Itna time ho gya par ab bhi nai ho rha.
          	Abhi bhi use yaad Kar ke ro deti hu.
          	Main toh kabhi mili bhi nai, tab bhi ye haal hai Mera

hahajaja02

Not only I watched their season but also made my family see it. Jab bhi ladte the, mere parents bolte the ye fir lad liye and I used to tell them koi nai, dekhna sone se pehle theek ho jayenge and that's what used to happen. Shehnaaz ke birthday se kuch weeks pehle ladai lambi chali. Even then I used to tell my sister dekhna birthday pe patch up ho jayega. And this gave me immense happiness, way more than any personal achievement.
          They are the ones who made me believe in true love. 
          Jab bore hoti thi, wattpad pe completed stories padhti thi. Saari completed stories Maine reverse mein padhi hai. Yaar Maine toh wo story tak nai padhi jiska end sad ho. Mere liye Sidnaaz always meant happy ending. Real life mein kaise bardaasht hoga mujse.
          Sidnaaz ki story hamesha kisi movie ki tarah lagti thi muje. Nai Pata tha wo story Aashiqui 2 ki hogi. Sid, though a popular actor, was still not active before BB 13. He came there to give support and wings to Shehnaaz. He made her strong and left her all alone. 
          Sab log lekin Sach bolte the Sid ke baare mein. Wo phone nai uthatha. Ab wo kabhi Shehnaaz ka call pick nai karega. Ab kabhi usse baat nai karega. Ab toh rainbow bhi achcha nai lagega muje.
          First time in my life, I wish ki wo BB 13 mein nai aata. Na hoti usse itni emotional attachment ke ab sab khaali lag rha hai uske Bina.
          I remember telling @Prernnnaaahhhhhh once that Sidnaaz pe koi bhi aur har song suit karta hai. Never knew ek din ye line bhi suit karegi 'Rabb Ohnu Kho Lainde
          Jehda Howe Ohnu Jaan Ton Pyara'.
          Went to temple today after almost 2 years and asked for strength for myself, for those who are mourning his departure, for Shehnaaz. Kal use dekh ke dil aur dehel gaya. Dukh diya tha toh use jhelne ki strength bhi do. 
          Please guide me ki main kaise sambhalu apne aapko.

Prernnnaaahhhhhh

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hahajaja02

@Prernnnaaahhhhhh and I know you are there. Thanks for being there dear. 
            Aur Shehnaaz ke saath bhi hum sab hai.
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hahajaja02

I am trying but not able to. But will have to gather myself. Lekin ab kisi se itna pyaar kabhi nai karungi.
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I am not very sure of what to write. But I need to take this out. I know it's killing me and harming me, the same way he knew that smoking was killing him. 
          I am not able to sleep, eat or do anything. Just keep thinking of Sidnaaz, even while bathing. Tears are unstoppable. Can't even explain it to others. For others, it was another celeb who couldn't make it but for me, it wasn't like that. I feel constantly feel a void. Dil bahut bhaari bhaari ho rha hai.
          An honest confession, before I became a Sidnaazian, I was a Sidheart. Always supported him much more than I supported Naaz and was always biased towards him. Pata tha ek hi winner hoga, isliye always wanted Sid to win the show and not Naaz but like Shehnaaz, wanted her to be with him till the end when he would lift the trophy.
          Another honest confession, whenever I saw Sid giving tight hugs to anyone, I used to love it. Lagta tha Kitna protective feel deta hoga na ye hug and I also wanted that hug. Socha tha life mein kabhi ek baar toh milungi and will ask him to give a hug aur jitna suna hai ki wo down to earth hai, I was sure that he won't deny. But ye sirf wish reh gyi jo kabhi poori nai hogi.
          I saw all the seasons of BB till season 13 cos that was the highest point. None could match BB 13. Never got an urge to watch that show again except for times when Sidnaaz were there.
          Pata nai kaise aur Kab unse rishta ban gaya. Don't remember an exact moment when I fell for these two so hard. Social media pe stalk karna shuru Kar diya. And literally became obsessed for them. Would watch their videos the whole day. 2 saal they made me cry, smile, laugh and most importantly love. Kabhi bhi mood kharab ho ya sad ho inki videos dekh lo and you will be happy. They were my happy zone. Raat ko 2-2:30 baje tak inki videos dekhi hai. Never realized the time.
          Friends ko whatsapp pe Sidnaaz ke GIFs bheje hai. Cos mood uplift ho jaata tha. Ab toh happy moments dekh ke bhi rona aa rha hai. Yaar ye aansu run kyu nai rhe.