Hey, i just realized.. i'm a real convo killer.
When someone ask, what do you want for your birthday present?
I have no answer, the harder i think, the more i can't find the answer, and it's ended with answer "it's up to you" plus a smile.
When your friends held a surprise party for my birthday, i feel surprised, i smiled, but i didn't look like i'm happy,
Why? i can't expressed my happiness like the other people
I made them think that i'm not happy with their surprise, NO! I'm touched, i'm happy but just a little happy. I made whoever that give me present or food or something, they think that i'm not statisfied, but no... I just don't know how to expressed it.
I can't express my anger, can't express my happiness, can't speak with louder voice, can't speak in front of crowd, expressionless, but i'm a crybaby. I'm expert to feel sad, but can't really feel and expressing happiness.