dallas / haiku

i wonder if anyone here is alive hiiiiiiiiiiiiii

i have evolved. i am fading. i need to leave, but have i already left?

not again . y

help help fucking help me. broken brain. i don't want to do jt

the worms were in my skin but i can't get them out becuz my mutha is gonna find out how to know that i even did it. why else am I so itchy. i scratch until it bleeds. oh god help me  stupid brain. i hate u. shoot me NOW and let it SEEP out of my brain onto my body . my reaction to the person????? why does she stay here. i only people i straight up LOVE are my dad, brother and THE GIRL. oh god a sweetheart. but the boy too?? he doesn't want to talk to me. his features are pretty. 
             .  YOU SHOULD HAVE NEVER TRUSTED HOLLYWOODDDDDDDD
          ok. cc is gorgeous kimikimkimkimkiimki. i LOSt my CAR. BACKWARDS PRETTY HE'D BE MEAN TO ME. AT FAN NONO NO I'M SORRYYY I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT is Going on
          PEOPLE ALL GROW UP TO DIE. THERE IS NO INE HERE BUT ME. 
          i'm just typing it out so it can maybe go away. bye bye maybe. I wish they'd leave. gogogogogo leave me heretdie . hehehe. i'm silly  . i wanna DRUGSA HAH. i don't do that. but may be. pills? bills? kills? but yah pills  medicine for the goody goody ned foanders brain. 

sHIT. this does me no good. MISSING PEOPLE DOES NO GOOD. why don't i have friends ??? i'm a good person aside from the thoughts i swear. i hate them i hate them all. those people don't care??. i want them to fcking die but i love the people at school. what. not even the toxic person wants anything to do with me. i go a whole day without speaking to people. i just talk to myself in a lil mumble voice and make sure that it makes sense to me.?! 

vomit. how do I do it again. feel UHHHH (good?) school hurts a lot. i heard that my mom will have therapy für me by august. i told my dad that is going to be too late. i can't hurt. she'll check to see if I do. they didn't take anything. i could? 

YOU CAN'T BE AN ASSHOLE AND JUST BE LIKE "sorry" WHY'S EVERYONE I KNOW JUST BEING RUDE AND MAKING FUN OF ME?? I'M NOT A BAD PERSON, AM I??

somebody please please talk to me i can't do this 

Just wanted to say hi, I hope you're doing alright.