no one asked, but recently, i’ve been having a difficult time with life. i feel like i’m not performing to my full potential— not just in school, but in everything. this is nothing new to me though as i really wasn't an overachiever growing up. i’ve been thinking back on my life decisions, and the majority of them i regret. i feel that the path i chose isn't really for me, and i refuse to tell anyone.
simply put, pursuing something you're not passionate about is draining. but the thing that hurts me the most is that i know i am supposed to enjoy and love this because it is what i wanted and fought for. i want to believe that things will work out, yet when i think about my future, i see nothing. it got to the point where i would not mind being taken by god if he did so today.
i don’t think this is something serious, i’m just having an existential crisis AGAIN. (ᗒᗜᗕ)՛̵̖
okay, that's all i have to say. sending hugs to everyone. (っ*´∀`*)っ