After enormous attempts
Of making you mine
And getting you for myself
Nearly I failed,
The amount of certainty
That we wished to have
Lamentably we couldn't to get over it
I lost you then,
There our love trailed.
Somewhere deep down I knew it was destined to happen.
The desires of lingering jointly,
Weren't meant to come up,
The schemes we adopted to show our distress,
Created such a mess.
The possession of claiming you
Over took my mind and senses
Oh miserably I failed,
The consequences are still paid.
The convenant that was broken,
However the apology is unspoken.
I lost you there as well,
There our concern trailed.
Somewhere deep down it still aches me as hell.
My unrighteous deeds,
Screams all long night,
That if I tried,
I would have had you by my side.
Oh beloved! Some bonds are unendurable,
Because they are never made attainable.
Ill-starred since the birth,
I made your existence worst.
My obstinate self damaged your integrity,
As I thought to manage it steady.
I lost you there entirely,
Losing one of the most requisite bit of me.
There our altruism trailed.
Somewhere deep down I buried the agony.
Not a thing changed after you.
Except for me,
And our head-to-head under the stars,
Also my contented heart.
I feel satisfactory being solitary,
Then to move out and remembering your face in everyone else's.
I lost you a long ago,
But is that so!?
I hope she makes you feel yourself,
Without the compulsion to change.
Being with you could have been good,
But just for me.
Whilst knowing that you are good,
Is better.
Somewhere deep down it makes me blithe.
Unable to get you back,
I cry and try, try and cry
To muster myself up again
To pass the days left even though they're built of pain.
There's a long, long trail that prevails.
I lost you wholly in this of life.
Oh but hey!
In the next one you'll be mine.
There our love won't be trailed.
At the minimum,
Somewhere deep down I know that then I won't fail.
#microtale