hantelsay

Well today is my 34th Birthday!! 

Today has been an extremely emotional day. While we were driving this afternoon a car  driving by us a threw a kitten out its driver window. We quickly stopped I jumped out and grabbed him/her and called 911 as my mom sped to the nearest vet. Unfortunately the poor baby didn't make it he/she died in my arms on the way. I will never understand how someone can be that evil to an poor innocent animal. My mom and I have cried over the loss of this poor baby who wasn't even our own baby. 

Merry Christmas everyone!! I hope you have a fun and safe holiday even if you cant be with all of your loved ones. 

Happy Easter!!

I have been having serve pain in my right leg I had an MRI and an ultrasound done today I am still waiting on the mri results but the ultrasound showed I have a ganglion cyst in my leg that is pushing on my nerves. 

Please keep my mom in your thoughts and prayers she had her right total hip replaced Monday Jan 13. She has now had both hips and both knees completely replaced hoping to stay to prolong her stay out of a wheelchair as she has MS. 

Merry Christmas to all!!

Today is my Birthday!!

I am truly struggling right now I suffered a miscarriage in the beginning of August and feel like I have no one to talk to that understands my pain. I don’t feel like I can really talk to my mom as she doesn’t really get it as she as never experienced one herself all 4 of her kids have survived. My older brother was born at 27 weeks and had to fight for his life but he still survived and is thankfully still with us today. I never got hear my baby’s heartbeat or got the chance to see their first photo in their ultrasound or feel their first kick. I miscarried shortly after finding out I was pregnant. I was so happy to be pregnant as I was told when I was a teen I would never be able to have kids I will be 31 years old on October 27th and was so ready to finally be a mom and also  give my mom a grandchild that she so desperately wants. This makes the second grandchild that she has up in in heaven. The first is my oldest brother’s daughter Sakura she would have been 6 this year but her mom decided to abort her at 16 weeks behind my brothers back. It was a planned pregnancy. I plan on trying again 

I had surgery to remove my first rib and release my minor pec muscle on the left side yesterday. I had the same procedure done on my right back in March. I had a minor pec release on both sides when I was 17 years old. This one definitely hurts way worse as the surgeon had to do more work on this side this time as the surgeon when I was 17 did less work on the left side then he did on the right. Please pray for a speedy recovery with no complications. My lung clasped a little bit with the chest tube with the right side this time around I have a drainage tube so hopefully I won’t have a clasped lung.