I'm... 21.
To be frank, I don't feel much. It's supposed to be this big milestone. And while I have been looking forward to being recognised as an independent adult in the eyes of the government, I kind of don't want to grow up just yet.
I think this is what Seventeen has been preparing us for with their recent releases. The whole concept of leaving childhood, adulting and moving on with the next chapter with one's head held high. Was this what they felt as they entered their 20's? A sense of uncertainty, fear, worry, yet joy? I seem to have taken this turning-21 thing too lightly up until the days leading up to it and the day of. I brushed it off as simply turning one year older. I usually do. But 21 is a significant number. It holds weight and a myriad of responsibilities, and standards I am held up to. I am no longer a child.
I'll sleep and wake up, hopefully with a more positive outlook. Perhaps diving into some Seventeen songs will help me gain some hold on reality and look at things differently. Oh, how I would kill to be able to talk to Seventeen right now and get their advice face-to-face. Nonetheless, Seventeen is always there. Not in real-time but indirectly through other mediums such as music, entertainment or Weverse posts with candid confessions.
This post sounds pretty negative but I'm just mulling over everything as I always do. It's reality. I have to accept things as they come and find my way around them or utilise them to my benefit.
If you're going through a rough patch or adulting too, we always have our go-to people, activities or items to lift our spirits and make us feel again. I hope you have yours and keep it close to your heart. Let these coping mechanisms hold your hand while you traverse through life; even if that coping mechanism is a plastic spoon. At the end of the day, the one going through it all is you. No one goes through it for you. So strengthen yourself, take a breather and godspeed, my friends.
