Sometimes i wish I was a lesbian, but nO the universe just hAD to say, "YoU LiKe ThiS BoY" and my friend hAD to get MAD at me for liking that boy, SAYING I should "think harder about this kind of stuff, and make better decisions" like CAN'T YOU SEE I'M TRYING??? Like I already hate myself enough, you don't have to insult me for LIKING SOMEONE which is something I CAN'T CONTROL and then when I say "stop, I'm going to cry if you keep going" she says "good, maybe you should, them maybe you'd learn something". it's not like he'd ever like me back or anything. We'd never date. So it doesn't really matter, DOES IT?? NO IT DOESN'T.