@kunmi22 many people who are Christians find it hard to put their full trust in God. It is not easy, life, but once you learn that no matter what happens God will take care if you, it is better. I’m not saying that life will be perfect, normal even. Cause you will struggle, whether It be financially, physically, mentally, or emotionally . You will struggle, it will get better. I don’t know when or even why. But I know that there is a crown in Heaven that is for those who have been through the toughest of situations. I understand what is it like to struggle with your faith, I really do. It is a deep hole that is Christians find ourselves in, and it is hard to get out. But God will take care of you, maybe not in the way you think. But he will give you what you need, maybe not want. But need. Try reading your Bible more, or even just praying to him. Ask him to help with your faith. For him to help strengthen it.
“I am not alone for my Father is with me.”
John 16:32