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I pray for soulmates to meet and marry.
Soulmates that know when the other is drowning and reach out to hold the other.
Or build a boat to float the other from drowning.
Soulmates that marry because they can suffer together.
And I pray that I hope I have found mine.
An abyss inside my heart.
Everyday it keeps growing…
growing bigger than my courage,
Bigger than my dreams,
Bigger than my heart.
Life really is hard. You’re just making a living and all of the sudden you are burning. When you burning everything is painful, even the ones that’s been putting the fire that causes you burning.
When the things you prayed for, are things now hurting you. Is it being ungrateful?
Can be giving up as well be an option?
It is lonely when you are not okay, but it’s also the same lonely when you’re okay. That does that mean I am not okay?
Once was filled with words now filled with so much silence, it’s deafening.
Never again expect something to lessen the devastation. Everything that is outside of you is out of your control.
When words of love did not come out as you want, state those words to yourself instead.
When actions of care did not show, give those deeds to yourself lovingly.
It’s not selfishness, it’s you giving yourself grace.
You are the luck that I wait after the strings of misfortune.
I was so focused on controlling the darkness of my clouds that I forgot I already showered rain on to others.
A core memory: left alone, where no one remembers.