haru_lyn

one of my deepest regret is recommending my most favorite things in the world to the wrong person. now, she's got pieces of me with her. it's disgusting.

haru_lyn

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Havent seen him in like, half a year. Went to my old school, most of the students have went home,wonders what it feels like to be infatuated--havent felt that in years, kinda upset i didnt get what i went to my old school for, decided to go home, walked on the road without any students around, started thinking about him, what if--just what if i see him again or he sees me while im walking down this road, hAh probably not gonna happen almost all students have went home i cant see any around, "there she goes" started playing in my earphone, then-someone intentionally walked pass me; he made sure he's walking fast so he can catch up to me, im facing his back, then he side eyed me, probably trying to make sure if its really me, or, im kinda sure of it, he wanted me to see him but we didnt say "hey" we didnt say anything to each other, we're both the quiet kids-- we never really talked but we shared glances from time to time and tried to listen when the other is talking, you know that mysterious silent connection u have with someone that the only you two know its like a secret? yes thats it. my hearting literally started beating fast, i couldnt breathe, seeing him took my breath away, i missed him. The feeling i thought ive forgotten--i felt it again. The ending? My dumb insecure ass with low self esteem walked fast, went the other away, when i couldve just gone to the same jeep as him and probably talk to him for the first time. Yup. Im a dumbfuck.