hayeinna

05-10-22 Tuesday 9:25PM
          	
          	
          	✅ Depression and Anxiety
          	05-01-22 to present
          	Insomnia
          	No Appetite
          	Blank
          	Heavy Crying
          	Can't get up
          	Pain in the chest
          	Mental Illness

hayeinna

I am not blaming you for what happened to us nor myself kasi bago ako naging mahina lumaban ako, pinaglaban kita at minahal kita sa paraang kaya ko and if that was not enough for you, I am not sorry. Because that was the love I forgot to give to myself.
          
          Dy, I want you to be happy. I wish you the best. I truly do. Take care of yourself. If ever magka-girlfriend kag usab, love her more than you loved me. Thank you for the good and bad memories, that was the best! 
          
          For now, I am broken beyond repair. Maybe one day. Also, I don't want to hold a grudge against you so I forgive you. I still value the friendship we had 5 years ago 
          
          So long, my knight in shining armor.

hayeinna

What we had was a roller coaster ride relationship, but it was fun! You were not a perfect boyfriend, far from it as a matter of fact. I, too, was never perfect - our love was never perfect. We had our ups and downs as every relationship has. We had countless problems; small, big, personal, etc. But I loved it just the way it was.
          
          These past few months, things changed, as most things do. I knew something was off between us, and I was right. I felt unloved and neglected by you but amidst of the changes, one thing stayed the same, my love for you. So I chose to understand you more even if it means hurting myself. You never share your problems with me anymore and that was already a cue. With each passing day, I could feel you falling out of love with me that is why I wasn't really shocked na ganiha.
          
          Sa sinugdanan satung convo, call me "tanga" or "bugo", I admit, I didn't want to let you go at first until I realized self worth and thought it would be the best for us. Gusto tika sumbatan sa tanang gusto nakong isumbat nimo, I want to loathe you. I tried, but I failed. I cannot hate you because I love you too much.. And I regret nothing.
          
          to be continued ...

hayeinna

An open letter to the man who broke me and my heart:
          
          5 yrs. 6 mos. Sometimes there really comes to a point when you have to give up on someone you love not because you don't love that person anymore but because he fell out of love and you don't have any fight left in you so your only option is surrender and let go.
          
          We both knew our love was wrong to begin with because we were so young pa at that time, maling panahon. Yet it felt so right. It was the kind of love that embraced my whole being, you became "my home". We were each other's allies and survived high school together.
          
          to be continued ...