♍haylee m.♍

hii i made a spam ♿

HIIIII

not my wattpad glitching in the middle of me writing a requested chapter </3

on the road to 6k words; I hope you wanted a long chapter >.< @HollandxxDolan

some lyrics hit harder than they should.

"he screwed up, and you did absolutely nothing wrong.
          you gave him your heart and you trusted him to keep it and protect it, but he couldn't.
          and honestly, he's not mature enough.
          he's not smart enough.
          if he was smart, he would have cared for you with every fiber of his being and been with you in every spare second he could, but he didn't."
          ♡
          "tinkerbell has always been there for peter.
          and peter?
          he chose wendy."
          ♡
          "she was a rainbow, but he was color blind."
          ♡
          "choose people who choose you."
          ♡
          "if he wanted you, he'd be there.
          if he wanted you, you'd never question it.
          if he wanted you, he would have chosen you."
          ♡
          "how he treats you is how he feels about you.
          don't try to decode it or make excuses.
          it's simple.
          if he acts like he doesn't care, he doesn't care."
          ♡
          "if a boy doesn’t call you, it’s because he doesn’t want to call you.
          if he doesn’t invite you to go out, it’s because he doesn’t want to see you.
          if he treats you like shit, it’s because he doesn’t care.
          if he lets you go, it’s because he doesn’t want to be with you.
          when a boy says “I’m not ready, but you are the love of my life and the only one I want, but now is not the right time.”,
          it’s simply because he doesn’t want you.
          don’t keep playing his confusing games. 
          don’t justify him.
          when a boy wants to be with a girl, he stays with her without Iies, excuses, and complications.
          stop being genuine and naive, and stop justifying his every excuse and complication and put yourself first.
          you do not need someone that doesn’t know what they want, you do not need someone that doesn’t see your worth.
          you deserve a boy that knows your worth and fights for you every day.
          stop breaking your own heart for someone who probably won’t even be as good as you expect and allow yourself to be happy and be with someone who actually deserves you."
          ♡
          ~⋅~⋅~⋅~⋅~⋅~⋅~⋅~⋅~⋅~⋅~⋅~
          ♡

CRINGY RANT//
          -
          //2020 was a hard year for me; I struggled a lot, I drifted with a lot of people I thought I would never lose, I lost some of the people I loved most, and the world was just constantly falling apart around me.
          there was a point where I thought things could never get better because it seemed like everything was only getting worse, and, in a way, that hasn't changed-- things are hard, and they always will be; that's just life.
          despite all of the crap that 2020 put me through, I truly don't think I would've ever made it through the year if I didn't have some of the most amazing people in my life, guiding me and helping me through the hard times; I wouldn't be here without the love and support from the people dearest to me, and I can never thank you all enough for it.
          I met and made friends with some of the best people I could've ever imagined, and I'll always be grateful for the memories and the growth that we've all discovered together because, believe me, you all made it easier to even BEGIN to be able to get back on my feet after the many times that I've fallen.
          2020 was an indescribable year that I'm sure we all have mixed feelings for, but I have a feeling that none of us will forget all that the year has done for us, because although the year was hard for the majority of people, it's become a part of who we are...
          happy new years, everyone-- 2021 has officially started <3

hi, all!!
          merry christmas :)
          I love you guys so much, and I'm grateful for every single one of you.
          I hope you all enjoy your day, while also staying safe and healthy.
          I'm always here for you guys :)
          happy holidays!! <3

bebe, i know there was a lot of ups and downs in 2020 but 2021 is almost here and i hope its amazing for you  ily

| you're gonna be okay.