i've been wanting to apologize to everyone who's been waiting for an update for BMT and smoke. i've been having writers block lately and i feel that if i force myself to update both i wouldn't be content with the chapters and i don't want to let you guys down just because i'm not in the mood for it. for a while i've been planning on deleting BMT because i wrote it during a time where i was new to writing and had only carroty ideas down and i want to start over completely. i'm content about how the first part of smoke turned out and i have so many ideas that i just can't express into words. feel free to write on my message board about what you think i should do, as for i am still unsure of myself. i'm so so so sorry but i don't know what i can do and i can assure you that i'm as disappointed in myself as you are and if i had a decision of whether to write or not, i would definitely choose writing because i absolutely love doing it