heab-empy
my newly ex girlfriends' cousin (who ive known for 5 years) is trying to hook up with me :) this is fine :)
heab-empy
heab-empy
what should i name my worm?? they blue
heab-empy
im. making friends. this is a step in the right direction. this is good.
BeMoreBoyfRiends
i am your friend so we can make the pie together because that’s a fun thing to do with friends :-)
heab-empy
transition? nah i think you mean
puberty 2: electric boogaloo
heab-empy
hey google what do you do when you're in a mildly toxic relationship of 5 months and then your girlfriend's best friend confesses that they've loved you for a year and you don't know how you feel about them and then you cry for an hour because feelings are hard and you don't know what to do?
heab-empy
something is wrong.
heab-empy
The Guy Who Didn't Like Musicals is so underrated,, go watch it,, it has so many bops and it gets no love
heab-empy
serious question, how did you guys make friends????? like it seems like all of you are all friends with eachother and im just over here alone in the corner. how did you do that???// like seriously im lonely please tell me your secrets
heab-empy
@BeMoreBoyfRiends ikr- it's such a nice term. ive been screaming to my friends for weeks (months?) about my squishes and they're so sick of it tbh
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@BeMoreBoyfRiends its a crush, but platonic. like instead of holy fuck i wanna date u a lot" it's "holy fuck i wanna be ur friend a lot" and i have about 217
heab-empy
hi!!! im back for now. also have an intense squish & in a toxic relationship :D how fun
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uhh TW for suicide and a lot of bad stuff. Please ignore this, im just ranting.
Why do i have to be here? I just dont understand why i have to be here, be alive. Everybody would be better off without me in their hair. Every day is a chore. I'm losing motivation to do things like eat and sleep. It takes everything i have to speak most days. Im just a pussy and i cant do it. I cant do the one thing that me and everyone around me wants me to do. I just cant kill myself. Although thats fading away. Every day, the thought of dying just gains more appeal. Every day, i just consider it more. Ive tried, i dont know how many times. But it was never enough. Not enough pills, not a thibk enough rope, not long enough underwater. I thought, a few weeks ago, that i finally had it. I went to sleep half-expecting and hoping to not wake up. But i fucking did. I fucking woke up, didn't i? i can't feel anything any more. Not, happy, not sad, not angry, not scared. Just the knowledge that i'm slowly becoming a shell of a person. And my fucking mother cant even see it. She helicopters around me, noticing every little thing except this. Im pulling away from friends and family without trying to. I mean, i guess thatll make it easier for them when the inevitable comes. Anyways. I just needed to say this so it's not a surprise when i'm fhnally gone.