regret is the keyword in life.  help others, but become forgotten.  I smile, but deep down inside, no one will understand me. shedding tears gets me nowhere in life, but I still do it.  why?  because I can't quit.  its not that I don't want to, its because I can't.  my life is like a cycle of pain.  the one that continually beats me down.  I am crushed, yet without given time to recover, I am beat down again.  and I wonder,
when will this stop? but I know the answer. it will never stop.