Hi everyone,
Okay so I kinda disappeared for months and yeah… I haven’t been active since september, so I figured I should finally say something.
I did try to write. Multiple times. But every time I started, I hated it, deleted it, and tried again. And again. And yeah still hated it.
I don’t think I lost my ability to write, I just lost the motivation.
I kept telling myself I’d write “soon” ever since summer, but I just kept pushing it back. At some point it became obvious I was just lying to myself and pretending I wasn’t basically on a break.
So here’s the honest part: I won’t be writing anything anytime soon.
I still love naruhina with my whole heart, and I don’t think I’ll ever find a ship that could replace them. But loving something doesn’t automatically mean I can write for it. and right now, I just can’t.
I wanted to say this back in september, but I kept thinking my motivation would magically come back. It didn’t. And now it’s december… almost 2026, which is actually insane. I started writing in 2024. september, I think?
So yeah, I guess that’s the end of my very short writing era lol
That said, I do have a few oneshots and fanfics sitting in my drafts. My plan is to go through them during winter break in january, maybe edit them a bit, and post them. It feels wrong to let them go to waste when I always meant to share them anyway.
And yeah, “losing motivation” sounds like a weak excuse, but I’m also in college, and that alone explains a lot if you know, you know.
Anyway, this turned into a long rant. I just wanna say thank you for all the support, comments, votes. literally everything. I appreciate it more than you know.
Thank you for making me feel like a real author, even if only for a little while ❤️❤️
