@heartsore-
wow, it's been a while
tbh my motivation is on and off.
i would love to finish my stories and make more characters but i've been so incredibly busy lately, it's not even funny ಥ_ಥ
( @where_the_fun_begins ) thanks ! probs will be offline for a couple of weeks or i'll sporadically be on
idk why but writing these days feels like...different. it used to bring me joy but now, it makes me feel...anxious, like i'm committing a sin.
i think the main reason was because my pinterest was deleted and a beloved story of mine's board was deleted.
i had it for over a year with over 10,000 pins and i didn't even know it was deleted until i tried logging in again only to read an email stating my account was deleted and my heart sank.
like, i know it seems silly but that meant a lot to me because the characters and everything was a piece of my soul. idk if i'll try to write anytime soon, or possibly in the near future as i was reminded once again that writing was distracting me from my studies when it wasn't but i have to obey the rules.
following this decision, my heart sank and i have shed tears many a times but i have come to accept it and looking at my younger friends and seeing their passion, enthusiasm and dedication to write makes the hole in my chest more prominent and the feeling of being hollow worse.
i love stranger who take another stranger’s advice. may you find comfort not in brilliance but in the quiet act of trying & may writing no longer be a burden but a soft place to land. xoxo
( @xioowee ) thank you so so so much for this message. you have no idea how much you helped me. i was rapidly loosing hope on being a writer but your words alongside a few friends of mine, helped me immensely. thank you again, kind stranger ♡.
im completely a stranger but i couldn't scroll past what you wrote without saying something even if you’re inactive or otherwise.
here's what i hope you'll remember —your stories, your characters, didn't disappear with that board. they're still in you. your mind, heart, soul. they're the real canvas. the fact that you're grieving this shows how deeply you care & that care, that passion ? that's what makes you a writer so maybe not now or soon but take your time, heal.
should be inactive due to going back to madrasah !
eid mubarak ! ♡
@heartsore- Eid Mubarak! May Allah bless you with endless joy, barakah, and acceptance of your good deeds.
i have the inexplicable urge to delete all of my work and restart it TvT
why is ramadhan going so fast ╯︿╰
@heartsore- Ik right can't believe half of ramadān is over already may Allāh accept from us and grant us the ability to make the most of what’s remaining insha’allah u guys are all in my du’as
writing exams next week
i'm on the verge of tears and my sleep deprivation is kicking my ass
you ever watch those writertoks and see other author's living the writer dream and the bitter realization that you will never be like them because your family disapproves of it settles in and leaves a hollow feeling in your chest ?
just me ?
@heartsore- wish I could like this. For me, it's seeing film and art students in NYU and it hurts cause I come from a country that doesn't think its a serious course and had to choose Computer Science
( @greektrgdy- ) that's painfully relatable but i'm proud of you for continuing to write ! <3
@heartsore- I'm so sorry to hear that. My plan is to be a teacher and write books on the side. Tbh, unless you become extremely popular, writing books wouldn't be enough to make a living. But you can always make it a side career!
i'm writing next week and i'm rather writing shit
omw to yet another breakdown
ramadhan mubaraak !
really excited this year because it's my brother's first time reading taraweeh ♡
( @Slave_of_Ar-Rahman ) jazakallah so much ! hope you have a blessed and fulfilling ramadan ahead <3