heartstopperlover81

Hey guys, I just wanna say I’m so sorry I have lost all of my spark I have no motivation too write anymore and I just feel hopeless. I have been sh almost everyday and have been having bad suicidal thoughts I have a lot going on and I feel like I have no one anymore I’m sorry if I’m not doing enough for anyone I just really don’t wanna be here anymore but know I do love you guys but I feel really alone right now.

mandy_9146

@heartstopperlover81 my shylaaa please stay alive you can do this ik its hard ,and you feel like you cant get better but your not your fighting this battle and i believe in youuu , ly stranger
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Devilspeak2

@heartstopperlover81 P.S. sorry for being late, im dumb and I forgot to check my notifications for like the 20th time.
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Devilspeak2

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@heartstopperlover81 NEVER FEEL LIKE THAT!!!!!! YOUR WRITING IS THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME FROM YEETING MY PHONE ACROSS THE ROOM!!!!!!!!!! STAY ALIVE MATE!!!!!! Self harm never helps. If you're feeling this way, you need to talk to someone. I remember you saying that people made you want to die. Just stop listening. It doesn't matter if a group of people don't like you. What matters is that you like yourself. If there is something you don't like about yourself, talk to a specialist to help change. If its not something major, like you dont like your accent or whatever, its not a big deal! You do you! But in all seriousness, talk to someone about the sh. And maybe the shit that people were giving you to a therapist, friend, or relative. It feels better to unload than to bottle it up. 
          	  
          	  Stay alive and talk to people!
          	  -Peak
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heartstopperlover81

Hey guys, I just wanna say I’m so sorry I have lost all of my spark I have no motivation too write anymore and I just feel hopeless. I have been sh almost everyday and have been having bad suicidal thoughts I have a lot going on and I feel like I have no one anymore I’m sorry if I’m not doing enough for anyone I just really don’t wanna be here anymore but know I do love you guys but I feel really alone right now.

mandy_9146

@heartstopperlover81 my shylaaa please stay alive you can do this ik its hard ,and you feel like you cant get better but your not your fighting this battle and i believe in youuu , ly stranger
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Devilspeak2

@heartstopperlover81 P.S. sorry for being late, im dumb and I forgot to check my notifications for like the 20th time.
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Devilspeak2

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@heartstopperlover81 NEVER FEEL LIKE THAT!!!!!! YOUR WRITING IS THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME FROM YEETING MY PHONE ACROSS THE ROOM!!!!!!!!!! STAY ALIVE MATE!!!!!! Self harm never helps. If you're feeling this way, you need to talk to someone. I remember you saying that people made you want to die. Just stop listening. It doesn't matter if a group of people don't like you. What matters is that you like yourself. If there is something you don't like about yourself, talk to a specialist to help change. If its not something major, like you dont like your accent or whatever, its not a big deal! You do you! But in all seriousness, talk to someone about the sh. And maybe the shit that people were giving you to a therapist, friend, or relative. It feels better to unload than to bottle it up. 
            
            Stay alive and talk to people!
            -Peak
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heartstopperlover81

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I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE (people at my school make me wanna die sometimes)

Devilspeak2

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@heartstopperlover81 instead of focusing on whats shit in your life, how about you focus on whst you have and what you love? It works for me.
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Devilspeak2

@heartstopperlover81 youre seriously worrying me....
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Devilspeak2

Goo off this morning and I have a cat cafè in a few weeks ago while she was in bed with a lot I was going to do it with her  but I still have to go back to sleep and then go on a walk to the word you can get you a little about a month ago and I can get it done and get my shoe and I can get it done for the concert and we can go to bed and see if we can go to bed and see if we can go to the store for a little bit and I can get you a little about the same thing right  and I will be out early in the basement for a few minutes to get ghaz and I have a cat that is the guy that I want to the word I have to be doing that to me and a half a month and I can get it done and get my shoe and I can get you a new one for me to get ghaz and I can come over to you if you need me and I have a little about a month ago I love you too and a half of it and it is important to be doing it is important for you and your family and I have a little about a month and a good one to get my shoe and I can get it done for the concert and then go on a sea shanty with you a little bit of time and a half a day o-of Christmas and I can get it done and get my shoe back and I will have it done and get my shoe and I can get you a new one for me to get it in the morning and I'll be home by then I'll be home in a little bit and I have to get my

Devilspeak2

Oooohohhhhh the headache
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heartstopperlover81

@Devilspeak2 don't be sorry i don't think i have laughed so hard in my life
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Devilspeak2

I'm sorry I'm drunk af from Christmas. My drunk ass decided to fall asleep of my phone screen.
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heartstopperlover81

Guys I miss you guys like  I know I haven’t been able to update but like I still miss you guys because I love reading your comments and I feel bad that I can’t write 

Devilspeak2

@heartstopperlover81 5 days to chap 18 right? *Menacing look*
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heartstopperlover81

@Devilspeak2 I mean it didn’t get any comments anyway 
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heartstopperlover81

Ok I’m so sorry but my computer broke I’m getting a new one for Christmas but I refuse to write in my phone I’m so sorry I love yinz!

Devilspeak2

@heartstopperlover81 ight. Sorry I'm late. I am dumb and forgot to check notifications again 
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heartstopperlover81

@MsJFanwriter thank you I’m getting a new one soon!
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heartstopperlover81

OK, so I know it’s been a while so hello I do have a good reason for me away and it’s because I have a boyfriend he is amazing He treats me so well he compliments me anytime I he can and we are both really clingy but anyways not the point I will try to upload the laHe treats me so well he compliments me anytime he can anyways not the point I am going to start writing the last chapter of my book soon

Devilspeak2

@heartstopperlover81 NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
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