small vent
okay so my mom always wonders "why dont you speak at home" or something like that, ITS ALWAYS BECAUSE OF HER, WHENEVER I SPEAK AT SOME POINT SHE'LL START YELLING AT ME AND GETTING MAD, doesnt seem like a big deal but when your getting yelled at basically almost everyday it does start taking a tole on you, ive been dealing with her yelling for YEARS, i dont understand why my dad is still with her, she will threaten things if we dont behave, one time my younger brother was throwing a tanturm and my mom threated to send him to his room and that he cant come out for the rest of the day and he wont get any food, like dude you cant do that. When i was younger whenever me and my siblings fought my mom would threaten to leave, one time she almost did leave but my dad conviced her to stay. Im so done with my mom, she yells and yells and gets mad if we yell back, this is the reason why i dont like being around her, the reason i like staying in the basement. She gets mad over tiny little things and takes it out on me and sometimes my siblings but mostly me since im the one she doesnt mind yelling at, my younger siblinsg + older siblings rarely get yelled at ITS ALWAYS ME, my mom says that if i was her first born she wouldve put me up for adoption and would never have more kids. I was a bad kid when i was younger sure and i would often get sent to my room or spanked or put in time out but mostly GET YELLED AT. sometimes i feel like its my fault that she yells since she said that when she got pregnant with my younger brother she cried (not happy tears, SAD tears) since she didnt want them to 'turn' out like me, but anything, their worse then how i acted, they throw tanturms 24/7 and get mad whenever they dont get what they want, but somehow they dont get yelled at?!?!?
