hellnosoul

I used to enjoy being alone.. i never felt lonely. These days I am afraid to be alone and surrounds myself with people but i feel lonely. I feel isolated. Kind of irrelevant..

hellnosoul

I feel so much at ease when I think that I am fine if life ends here.  I always think it would be peacful and I finally can see the light once it all ends. 
          
          I have come to accept that I need to live with minimum stress and harm. Dream? Life goal? Hope for better future? Work for the best to come? Nope. None of that aspires me to care anymore. I just want to live less stressful life. If it means less worry then to hell with all dreams and future.
          
          I just want to regret nothing. And i will regret nothing I chose since at least I had a choice in it.

hellnosoul

Growing up hearing "wish we died 20 years ago" almost every day.... and here I am still hearing it until today... it is been more than 20 years..
          How am I suppose to not grow suicidal thoughts or how can I not feel it is okay to be so.
          
          What unforgivable sin did I commit in my previous life to live such toxic life?

hellnosoul

Lost how many times I hoped i end it there.
          I am at the point of taking all risks to get done with this life.
          What would a psychologist do when the person/s enflecting this on me is still around? 
          They are making my life much more hatder to bear. 
          I am in that place where when i think of after ending this life i wont regret it! 
          
          Fckn hell.