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TW: VENT, MENTIONS OF SELF HARM. I know I don't deserve to be treated like this, because I've stayed strong for so long and I didn't even hurt myself, yeah maybe I had a few bad thoughts here and there but I never acted on them. I finally gave in, they made me hurt myself and they don't even care. I'm sick and fucking tired of getting yelled at by people I call my family, I'm not stupid or naive anymore. Yes, I may hurt myself and cry because of what they say but I understand for the first time that they aren't truly my family. Because real mother's don't watch while you when you get abused, real father's don't leave, real brother's don't fat shame, but real sisters stay there for you and they defend you and help you. I'm so ready to go off right now I don't even care what happens.