Bro...
If you're feeling bad...
Fight it. Take the pain, ignite it. tie a noose around your mind, loose enough to breath fine ans tie it to a tree, tell it
"You belong to me. This ain't a noose, it is a leash, and I have news for you: You must obey me."
In all seriousness, stay alive, bro. I'm always here for you. <3