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I’ve been thinking about writing for the Undertale fandom again, but I’m having some issues. I’ve been writing for the DC and Marvel fandoms and I have been way more proud of the stories I do there than the ones I wrote previously. Not because I necessarily think DC and Marvel are better than Undertale AUs, but because Marvel and DC have a formula that’s very easy to make plot for.
          
          For Marvel and DC I can just make up a villain (like one I am writing now that’s a Spider-Man, Daredevil, and Deadpool fanfic with a villain I made up called Heartbreaker) or use a pre-existing one to drive the story forward and in between do the heart wrenching emotional scenes I like doing. But with Undertale AUs? Especially since I like writing with the Bad Sanses since they’re the most interesting characters… It’s kind of starved for plot. But! I have a few ideas.
          
          1) Apocalypse AU. Tons of plot to be had in an end of the world scenario.
          
          2) Hero/Villain/Vigilante AU. Now that I have tons of experience with this kind of fic, I could do something cool with it, but if I want to write with The Bad Sanses, I’m kind of limited.
          
          3) I stick with the limited plot that Undertale AUs has and just make up my own villain. Kinda hard considering Nightmare and Dream’s powers are kinda cheat codes which makes mystery hard to do, lol.
          
          Which one sounds most interesting?

Been trying to write a real book for a while now, and currently I’m focusing on two at once. One, I’ve rewritten at least six times and the other I am now rewriting for the fourth time. For this one, I’ve already written four chapters for it before realizing it wasn’t nearly engaging enough. But it gets better with each iteration! I’ll get there eventually.

Can people actually watch and enjoy AI videos?? Most of the time, I won’t even spot the signs something is AI (my sister is really good at that, but I suck at it) but just looking at an AI video makes my brain hurt if that makes sense. Like, I won’t spot that the dude has seven fingers or that the background is distorting, but something about it makes me feel like someone is using kid scissors to separate the hemispheres of my brain.

Oh my god, I stepped on a slug and killed it. It was one of the ones that slip under the door because they know I feed them. Oh my god, I feel so bad. How can I ever atone for this sin???
          
          (I’m being so dead ass, I feel like scum)

How do I know if something is gender dysmorphia or just general disgust and hatred towards my body? I really don’t know. 

“You’re a very opinionated young woman” feels like a passive aggressive compliment. Is that a thing? Idk, something about that in particular makes me bristle. That and “You’re so mature for your age”.

Playing Pokemon Go in my area is horrifying. There was a gym behind my house separated from literally everything else, no other poke-stops or anything, and so I took initiative to go claim it. That’s how I ended up standing in front of a stranger’s house (with their dog barking and snarling at me) right next to a homeless camp tapping a screen for five minutes. Then, I wanted to go get that Max Pokemon, so I started walking over. Keep in mind, there are no sidewalks ANYWHERE, and when I get to that road, I see it’s a busy ass street that also has no sidewalks, but this time, there’s not even a ditch to walk in like I had been doing.
          
          And I was like “Do I really want to get side-swiped by a Ford F150 for a Max Roggenrola?” Hard pass. Also, I’m vaguely aware there’s an offender somewhere nearby, I just don’t know where.
          
          Keep in mind, this is the GOOD neighborhood near me. People are ENVIOUS of this neighborhood because it’s not nearly as bad as the surrounding ones. And still, it’s horrifying.

I think people forget what DubCon means. I just read a smut fic where it was hero x villain and the hero was in civilian clothes so they were unable to escape when they were kidnapped and held hostage. Turns out, one of the guys keeping the hostages there was the hero’s lover. Or, not lover? Enemies with benefits. So the villain makes a show of ‘I’m gonna make this one talk!’ And drags the hero into a room where they devise an escape plan and end up fucking because it turns out, our hero and protag is really into it. Like, REALLY into it.
          
          And someone in the comments was like ‘great DubCon fic!’ And I was like… “… The hero was the one initiating the sexual encounter. He was at least 10x more enthusiastic about it than the villain was.” That’s like, the opposite of dubious consent, that’s enthusiastic consent. Just because it’s rough and very unconventional sex doesn’t mean DubCon. Right?
          
          And it’s not the first time I’ve seen that. I’ve been seeing fics recently where, sure, consent isn’t as clear as “Do you wanna fuck?” “Yes”, but both parties are actively and excitedly participating, so I don’t understand why people are tagging fics like that.
          
          Just something weird I wanted to rant about, lol.

I have insane family lore that no one would believe if I told them. For example: I know some members of the local biker gang because my grandpa used to sell meth to them. If I ever told anyone IRL that, they wouldn’t believe.

Guys, what should I do for pride month? We were supposed to go to a pride parade in my area, but now I guess we aren’t doing that and I’m not doing anything else this month, so…