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On the bright side, I have a lot of irl experience with abusers so I can more accurately write it into stories. Honestly, it’s terrifying more than I see in stories. Abusers aren’t always aggressive and throwing things and yelling, sometimes they are calm, affectionate, and loving. It’s those random bursts of violence though. It comes out of nowhere sometimes. Sometimes you are just lying there writing and all of a sudden you’re watching full-blown abuse and trying not to be the next victim. 

There are some cryptids out there that I believe in. The biggest one is the Not Deer because deer are fucking weird. Usually, the story will go that there is someone in the woods at night who sees a deformed deer. Usually, they stand up on their back legs and run off into the forest after being spotted.
          
          One: Deer can 110% run on their back legs.
          
          Two: Have you ever seen an injured deer? They don’t act like they are supposed to. They don’t act like they are in pain or anything and it’s freaky as shit.
          
          Three: Chronic Wasting Disease, brain worms, rabies, and many other diseases can make deer act weird as shit. So seeing one randomly hop up on its back legs and sprint away is pretty tame in comparison. 
          
          The only thing I don’t believe is that they are shapeshifters or whatever. I do believe there are fucked up deer walking around like nothing is wrong which looks freaky to humans, but I don’t think it’s something masquerading as a deer, I think it’s just a sick animal.
          
          TLDR; I am terrified of deer because they don’t react right to pain which weirds me out, and I 100% believe fucked up deer are wandering around spooking hikers.

I didn’t realize how close I am to a mental breakdown until I just accidentally started to think about how shit my life has gotten recently.

What freak of nature is the one who makes Huggies commercials? You know, the diaper commercials that exclusively show infants butts and constantly talking about it in very uncomfortable ways with very close camera angles of these 1-5-year-olds.
          
          It’s fucking weird, gross, and makes me horribly uncomfortable anytime I get an ad for Huggies.

I don’t know why I am so opposed to the idea of Big Foot. Like, with most other urban legends and cryptids, I am like “Eh, maybe it’s real, maybe it’s fake, maybe there is truth but other parts are exaggerated” and yet with Big Foot, I am always like “No. Not real.”
          
          I don’t know why either. I just don’t believe in some monkey man who kidnaps people or whatever. Of ALLLLLL the legends in the world, of which I am generally a nonbeliever anyway, I believe in Big Foot the least.

One of Wattpad’s many flaws is how bad the search engine is. You can search any ship and somehow still get x Reader fanfics instead. I can’t find any stories that I am interested in unless it’s from someone’s profile, someone I already like. Ao3 is far less user-friendly, but at least it has a pretty good search engine. 
          
          Also, Wattpad randomly nukes stories. Still salty about that.
          
          Also, Wattpad is infected with ads.
          
          Also, it’s glitchy as all hell.

Studying for EMT school (fun) and I was reading an article about pregnancy, and this one phrase was fucking unhinged. “Once you go into labor, there’s no way to stop labor from progressing.”
          
          I mean like, that’s true, but why do you have to phrase it in the most terrifying way???
          
          “It’s inevitable, it’s happening, you can’t stop it.” WTF???

What is Cross’s weapon? Dual swords? Daggers? Knives? I don’t know what the proper term is and the wiki is very unhelpful.

What do (cannon) Dream and Nightmare do all day? “Spread positivity/negativity through the multiverse”. What does that mean?? Is Dream just going around making friends? Is Nightmare just spamming racial slurs on Twitter? What the hell does that actually mean?? How do I write “spreading positivity through the multiverse”?

I thought getting sent to be without dinner was a pretty normal childhood punishment. Same with not getting food if you didn’t do your chores. But I was watching Edith Finch and when it mentioned the daughter was sent to bed without food, the guy playing was like “Wow, that’s fucked up.”