oh jeez no one even reads this who am i kidding
but hey
is anyone here reeeaaal hyped up for christmas?
coz i'm losing interest and as much as i love meeting my relatives, it's getting tiring. i'm not even happy when i get money from the adults...
i guess i just really wanna feel like a kid again?? i mean, i AM still a kid, but i don't feel like one. i feel stuck in between teen and child, like i don't really know what stage of life i am right now.
but, seriously. i missed those times when christmas seemed like such a big deal. now, it's just, i don't know, another holiday. the only fun christmas thing is christmas party IN SCHOOL.
i really want irl friends who'd drag me to who knows where and give me a taste of life.
not like my family would allow me, though. bummer.
hopefully, talking to someone who's really hyped about christmas would help? haha