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Cantik la update baru ni [hehe]
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I named the book "Bintang, Matahari dan Bulan".
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tumpang lalu, nak tulis serba sedikitla tentang tajuknya sini.
Matahari is Mimi because her name starts with S which is the first letter of the Sun, AND her name in Arabic or Jawi— ش that's also in الشمس. yes, with the ال cause she's makrifah. only makrifah for her Baji. actually, this is just how he defines her except calling her "my perfume" as Mimi means keharuman.
Next, Bulan— which is Rana. this is Kaku's pov that he will call her by her second name. not her actual name, actually. her so-called name by him yakni "qamari" as he found her being so cold to him is just so fascinating. "cold as the rock yet so pretty like the badr/qamar" said him. gonna put in their scenes with my ilmu balaghah, too.
Bintang obviously translated as Najma. sadly, not my second name. but worry not. she'll get called with "my star" by Naoto. she found it weird because Naoto himself, called her a weirdo several times. like this "kau ni pelikla. macam alien" and then she balas-ed, "kalau aku alien, kau angkasawan". she prefer getting called as alien, rather than star because she hates her name. till that day where Naoto told her "aku nak jadi bulan. sebab aku nak kau jadi bintangnya. my star. or you wanna hear it in a better form, my Najma. suka?"
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The V one is the most asli one written by me (so far) as I really poured all my feelings into it just to make it clearer than air mutlak. Fuh.
Tak gunakan bahasa tinggi mana pun sebenarnya tuk kalam semua tu. Sebabnya, aku pun bukanla tinggi mana [sedar diri]
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Tried to at least sound smart yet I forgot that I'm dumbly smart ToT
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Last night, I cried myself to sleep as the thoughts of being not good enough had been playing inside my mind. It felt like I had a conversation with different personalities of me.
"Aku tak cantik, kan?"
"Kenapa cakap macam tu?"
"Bukan cakap. Aku tanya."
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"Kau kenapa ni selalu menunduk ni?"
"Ramai lagi ke orang?"
"Laki dah takde, cuma tinggal perempuan yang ramai."
"Orang juga tu."
"Perempuan je kan? Tak perlulah tundukkan pandangan macam dorang tu lelaki."
"Ini cara aku elak diri dari rasa insecure."
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"So, you're insecure because you feel like you aren't cantik?"
"Cantik itu subjektif. Aku cuma rasa macam aku ni tak pernah cukup dekat diri sendiri. Nampak beza dia?"
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"How does it feel to be like my other friends- oh to be like them..."
"So, kau tak takut penyakit 'ain?"
"Thanks for reminding me that."
Dan pelbagai lagi——————
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And when it was about to come to the end, ش's comfort words saved me from being lost in my own thoughts even deeper. Rasa dia macam they pulled me from drowning lantas put me in an embrace.
"Kita sempurna dengan cara kita, ayang."
Cried even harder dalam pelukan tu ')
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Progress;
1¼
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Can't wait for the sekolah menengah scenes. Maybe dalam 10+ chapters(?). Aku asyik terbayang scenes tu manjang but sadly, aku tak serajin how I was back then.
SEMANGAT WOI!
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Semangat menaip agak membara.
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I'm currently on my es-pi-em arc, gotta go now. Doakan aku, armin dan mimi. Terima kasih! ^^
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Salam besok trial spm.
#tawakalabadi
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rindunya :')