hisacookie

Out of the need to people please here take this little thing;
          
          Illumi wakes up with a silent groan at how the day once again dares to shine through the blinds and remind him hes not dead, but the moment he turns his head and is greeted by a familiar red head calmly sleeping half buried in pillow, he instantly remembers, life isn't all that bad. But then Hisoka wakes up and catches Illumi staring. "Hm, Morning Illu~♥" the redhead says with a calm smile, eyes still unopened. Illumi feels a bit shook at the sudden reply, "Morning, Hisoka.." he replies as he brushes some hair from his face, and thinks to himself for a moment. 
          
          'I wonder, how many more mornings we'll have like this, before one morning becomes your last with this contract, Hisoka...and how many of these mornings will i miss afterwards?' 
          
          They proceed to retrieve coffee's and begin their day of being ✨slay✨
          
          
          
          
          Im not sorry, your welcome- take care you humanz. 
          

Ik i keep apologizing for being so inactive its just to be genuinely honest heh...ALOT has been happening and i sorta dropped out of my hxh obsession. After some situations ive dealt with finally becoming an ✨aDuLt✨ things. Have just. Not- gone well and i need some time to get at least like. 15% more stable. Im so sorry i keep making you all wait for updates on... pffff heck everything. But im just ✨going through some shite✨ 
          
          I will say that im gonna write another fanfic at some point on a different ship thats been haunting my mind- and im not gonna feel bad or anxious for it. Cause if someone doesn't like it then to heck with them because well its exhausting having to feel so anxious over another persons thoughts about my stuff- ugh thanks alot trauma for that- 
          
          
          Anyways- uh. Hope y'all are doing good. And I'll preferably update soon. ;w; i promise - 

Hellooo!!

Ging;
          
          Going
          
          Into the 
          
          Nothingness 
          
          Goodbye 
          ××××××××××××
          
          Hisoka; 
          
          Horny 
          
          In my fruits
          
          School
          
          Omg
          
          Kill my
          
          Ass pls illumi.
          
          ××××××××××××××××
          Illumi;
          
          I-...
          
          Love my
          
          Little bro
          
          Uhm... 
          
          My sanity
          
          Is gone... :'D 
          ×××××××××××××××××
          Gon;
          
          Gone to find ging
          
          Only to find
          
          Nothingness :'D 
          ××××××××××××××××××××××
          Killua;
          
          Killing 
          
          Is 
          
          Literally my
          
          Life
          
          Universe is gon though...
          
          Also dont hurt alluka >:^ 
          ×××××××××××××××××××××××××
          Kurapika; 
          
          Kill the spooders
          
          Uno reverse...your familys dead...
          
          Rage on chrollo
          
          Ask for pairo back Q-Q 
          
          Phinks is gonna die...im gonna kill him...
          
          I am sad, therefore i refuse phone calls. 
          
          Kill more spooders. 
          
          And, collect my family's eyes. UwU 
          (If you read that...did you notice i spelt their names virtically?)
          

~The life of closested gay illumi~
          
          *Hisoka and illumi making out*
          
          *Kikyo, suddenly door opens* 
          
          Illumi: *paniced he shoves hisoka out the window*
          
          Hisoka: *lands in tree like ouch*
          
          Killua: *was hiding in illumis closet with a camera so he would have tea on illumi, for the next time he tried to kill gon*
          
          Illumi: Oh mom...I-...
          
          Kikyo: wAs ThAt a fLyInG cLoWn?! 
          
          Illumi: *the not so closested, closeted gay. :'D *
          
          Hisoka: . . . HELP *his head has been nested by birbs*

JUST SOME RANDOM BS CAUSE IM BOREB
          
          Illumi: Hisoka, Ive found something great...
          
          Hisoka: What?~♧
          
          Illumi: *smacks hisoka with frying pan* 
          
          Hisoka: *le knocked out*
          
          Illumi: -an easier way to make you silence. 
          
          Hisoka: *silence*
          
          Illumi: . . . 
          
          Illumi: Okay wake up I miss you already clown... 

PART 3; Of some hisoillu oneshot ig...
          (Gawd i hate myself))
          
          3 days later~;
          
          "Hisoka, its time you dropped this facade...Im not yours...and your not mines. It was a one time deal. Your just my buisness partner. Stop touching and treating me like something im not. I dont know what fantasy you lost yourself in but its over " illumi stated emptily, brushing himself off as if hisokas touch was a dirty stain. Hisokas eyes had widened in surprise. He quickly collected himself though. Shakily smirking. "O-oh?~♧" he asked. Illumi glanced back. Staring into hisokas golden eyes he smiled a dark, yet humourous smile and chuckled. Mockingly "What? You  really liked me hisoka? Im a zoldyck. What made you think a stupid clown was worthy of Me? Your just a pawn in my hunt for killua." He continued to chuckle. Hisoka felt a snap in his heart, he couldnt process.  A deafening feeling of numbness washed over his skin. He felt his smirk fall away and his. Hands grow cold. 'This, this cant be real...c-can it?~♧'he asked himself desperately. Illumis laugh soon fell away and he began to walk away from hisoka. "Stop comming here. Its annoying. I only wanted to test how love can be a useful way in leading a target in. Now that its over  you can just meet me in the bar as usual." And with that. He shut the door. Hisoka didnt have a chance to respond. He felt himself, as if not there. Automatically begining to leave the premises. It wasnt until he stepped foot in his arena floor that he let it hit him. Illumi had just dumped him. He felt like a fool, and thats what led him to now. His mind kept racing. But who could he call? Who else could he go to? He has no other allies....no one cared how he felt in this moment. He felt..."Cold...i-its cold~♤" he said to himself, wrapping his arms around himself as he allowed his minf to process illumis words. Hes used to hurting others....no ones ever hurt him like this before in Years. But, now? Who would hear his cries but himself? 

PART 2 of some fanfic oneshot ig;
          
          ~present time;~
          
          Hisoka felt the tears again, he internally hated himself for each drop he felt landed on his bedsheets. He couldnt tell. He gripped his heart. As if feeling it break. But, he simply knew he was being dramatic. Hes felt worse why did this hurt the most though? He wiped his tears quickly, seeing the facepaint he had on him on his hands from the tears only reminded him of what the world saw him as. A fool, a clown, a think to laugh and joke at. He felt pain sear through his mind as he stared at his hands, no  smirk, stars, or teardrops were on his face. A sadness and eyebags were in place of all that. 
          
          "Is that all I was to you, illumi?~♧"
          
          He thought as he felt more tears begin to well in his eyes. 'We had so much...so many dreams together...I thought...no, i felt like we belonged to each other...that i had found the one whom valued me... saw more then the circus freak i am...' he thought hoplessly and soon sank back into his bed, and covered himself, creeping back into the darkness underneath, where he knew he couldnt be harmed, but even then...hisoka realised the darkness remonded him of the only one he truly possesed and held dear to him. 
          
          

PART 1 of some oneshot ig 
          
          ~3 days earlier~;
          
          hisoka came to illumis window as for their usual meeting he gently tapped the glass and waved as he saw his dear assassin  turn around, he did have an odd, gut feeling something was going to be different. Illumi turned and opened the glass window, allowing hisoka to come in. Hisoka smiled, "Illu, you look just as lovley as always when you scowl like that~♡"  he smirks  when he saw illumis eyes narrow. He chuckles and wraps his arms around illumi, embrassing him, gently stroking his fingers in illumis long dark hair* "Hisoka.." illumi began, "Hmmm?~♡" hisoka responded, feeling the moment, it had been a few weeks since he had seen his assassin due to his hunt for chrollo, He had missed his assassin, more then he thought. Illumi hadnt hugged hisoka back he rather pushed the magician away and as hisoka gave a confused expression and glanced with worry in his eyes at illumi, illumi spoke....

SORRY FOR MY INACTIVITYTYY ive been struggling with writers block for awhile sadly. However i did manage to get some inspiration tho sad. Uhh I'll be posting a oneshot i developed in 3 parts in this area above :D if your interested however it will be sad so i dont advise reading if you dont like sad...