Butterfly
That's what you remind me of..
Beautiful.. elusive.. hard to catch...
It's not my words.. I've read somewhere in a book.. can't help but remember you when I saw the butterflies..
Did you really didn't wanted me..
Did you really mean those words just for formal questions..
Weren't you really effective..
Please tell me.. i haven't missed the chance.. because even there's nothing for me..
If I missed the chance of us being together.. I would regret it for lifetime..
And I guess life won't give us a second chance..
I hate this.. I'm still having thoughts about you and I don't even know if you remember me as an existed person..
I wish I could've known what you think about me, earlier..
But it's too late now.. to even know about it...
But remember I've loved you.. back then.. like no one ever would've loved you..
I see my butterfly finally found his flower.. with extra honey..
I realised you really doesn't care right... Finally it was clear..
How dumb of me.. to once I thought of being together with you even I don't know what is in your mind..
I won't wish you to be happy in your Marriage, I want to be little selfish of my feelings, it's not like you would read my mind..
I'm gonna pretend like.. you mean nothing to me, and your happiness doesn't matter to me anymore.. and yes, I'm lying to myself..
Why did I even thought of loving you back then...
Because the thought of letting you go was so much hurtful now a days..
Why.. just why can't I, didn't got a chance with you, what did I got myself Into..
My hope broke into pieces, could I able to feel a hope again..
I want to give a chance to my life, but the life was giving me no chance to hope..
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