baby sunshine hobi

hey guys, i started school so ik i’ve been mia but  i’ve just been really busy

hi my loves~
          
          it’s been so long and i missed you guys so much! :(  i’ve been kinda depressed lately and suuuuper busy. so much has happened since the last time i posted on here. i’m doing pretty good now, just been doing schoolwork and preparing to launch my small jewelry business. :)  im gonna start writing again, but i just wanted to come and say hi. im lowkey sad bc hobi is leaving but im hopeful for the future when they all come back. i hope you guys are doing well, love you!❤️❤️❤️
          
          -nai

hello, everyone.
          i apologize for being inactive as usual, but i just went through a very traumatic situation and it’s been hard for me to even get back into reality. a couple weeks ago, i was rushed to the hospital and almost died..literally. i hadn’t really talked about this but my body had starved itself for over two months and was finally ready to give up. i was vomiting blood, bile, etc. and couldn’t keep anything down. my bp is significantly high and my nutrients are low. i even lost control of my legs and had been bound to a wheelchair. thankfully, i am slowly but surely recovering and am now using just a walker for support. i am going to possibly be on hiatus for now until i recover. to anyone who reads this (if anyone does) i just want to say thank you for supporting my work all this time. it means so much to me. :)

HAPPY NAMU AND KOOKIE MONTH!!! AND BIRTHDAY TO ANYONE ELSE BORN DURING VIRGO SEASON!!! I LOVE YALL MWAH~!!!

hey guys, sorry i’ve been inactive. i had surgery three weeks and haven’t been feeling my best. i’m going to see my doctor and see if there’s anything wrong with my health. i love you all so much.

did you guys watch Hobipalooza??? that show was FUCKING AMAZING!!!

has anyone of you ever fallen in love with someone who lived so far from you and watched as they slowly become infatuated with someone else that just so happens to be right there beside them at all times while you on the other hand struggle to even get a phone call from this person anymore? but this person tells you how important you are to them and that there’s no one else that makes their heart flutter more than you do? but now you’re overthinking and paranoid over the thought of losing them to someone else? but can’t admit it bc you have trust issues and fear of rejection? AND THE PERSON YOU ARE AFRAID OF IS TEN TIMES PRETTIER THAN YOU (in your head)??? no?? just me???

i just wanna say thank you all for your encouraging words. i am doing a slight bit better. please continue to keep me in your prayers, i just tested positive for covid like a few hours ago. im not worried, just exhausted and restless lol. i’ll do my best to update the stories. i love you all so so much and you’re all doing well.♥️♥️♥️

i’m so stupid sometimes lol.

hey guys…
          
          i’m sorry for being gone for so long.
          
          tbh. 
          
          i am so depressed.
          
          i’ve been depressed all this time trying to pretend like im not and like everything is fine but it’s not.
          
          being disabled, depressed, suicidal, and anxious while also being surrounded by people who dgaf has been driving me to insanity.
          
          everyone thinks im overreacting or making excuses like my own family are telling im being dramatic and selfish.
          
          i am NOT ok. 
          
          i just want to be happy and normal again…i’ve been trying so hard to be strong but i don’t think i can fight anymore.
          
          i used to feel better while listen to bts and writing but it just makes me feel worse.
          
          i’ve gotten into fights with my closest friends and now im all alone…
          
          i don’t wanna live in this cruel world anymore.
          
          im sorry for dumping this on you guys, i just don’t know what to do and who to run to at this point. 
          
          anyways, i love you guys.
          
          thank you for keeping me happy for this long.
          
          :)