holotxtzy
Hi.
I am litterally such a roach.
Not a brilliant way to start it but it's the reality of me haha .
I'm trying to put myself back together piece to piece.
Yet I'm being tossed back to the beginning of constant shadows and , the future seems to set a fear in me.
I could already see the look of disappointment on future me's face when she looks back at me.
Right now.
In present time.
The state of my sorrows and hardships had defined me.
It took over me.
Like some sort of break up but like by multiple people at a time .
Punched a million times into my soul and what I see in myself without that one piece.
All hope in myself was taken cause those people let me define myself and I allowed myself to drown in it .
And now they are gone.
Discarded me away in seconds.
2 hours is all it took really.
53 texts.
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A part of what I called home which was so comfortable, I said things past my boundaries used what I told against me.
Using my past pain and inflicting that pain on me again very funny.
Bikini and weight and skin,bones, hipdips thighs is what matter more now.
satangchan_
@holotxtzy take all the time that you need to rest, regain strength and keep on fighting! I hope you can see the right support system who can help you in the trying times. Even if we’re strangers or moots on wattpad I’m sure a lot of people here in the wattpad community, midzys, moas and other people outside the online life, cares for you. And remember sometimes a new pair of ears are the best listeners. Strangers who can listen to your side with no judgement. Cut of the toxicity and support and put trust in yourself more than others. for your betterment and prioritize yourself! Keep on fighting. I got your back!
alicexxx7_
@holotxtzy Listen, most of us went through this phase ok? It's normal for you to feel this way because you are a human, you feel sad, bitter, exhausted, bored, am I right? Although I'm just an online friend and I can't really be with you irl, remember that people from around the world have got your back, it's not enough for you which I truly understand. Sometimes you just have to get over it and move on, trust me you will because we can't live like this, the hatred will grow til it becomes a forgotten memory. If you need anyone to talk to, just come up to me, I'm all ears. And just remember, it's okay to be surrounded by shadows because shadows are made from light and sunshine.
ChaeryTerry
@holotxtzy Hey my bbay what happnedrd??? Is there something you wanna vent out about?? Yk what imma dm you on insta coz i can feel that you have a lot of things going on with you and you need someone to rant it to.
