home_poetry

How are u all???

home_poetry

Hello.. 
          Well I'm posting for anything I dont know or care anymore but it somehow hurts.
          I saw my ex best friend in tuition..
          We Are classmates. Not anymore since section got divided..
          Well we still kept in touch for notes..yk..
          But when I saw her at the tuition..my first reaction was to wave her excitedly momentarily forgotten about the crack in friendship.. She Didn't even glance at me..
          She got Her friends that's okay..
          Well I felt hurt and it is my first day at that tuition and fun fact is her mom suggested my mom to get into that tuition
          
          And The first day is already horrible.. It's biology tuition.
          
          Well i Don't know I had urge to cry there..I felt suffocation there even there were more than 20+ people..
          And I have  tendency of hurting myself,I know It's bad..still
          I always carry anti cutter around me..well it helps that time.

Approachableperson

@home_poetry stop blaming yourself for everything or anything. You deserve to be loved by yourself, it is the most unconditional form of love. If u will do that to yourself, then how will things be OK? Please, improve your sleep schedule. Start meditation,  exercises, eat healthy. Start Journaling too. It all is gonna help. Seriously,  last year, I was also in the same situation.  But I did these things and they help. So, I would suggest you to do these things and apart from that Please listen to Tam Kaur, Wizard Liz. You really need their videos.
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home_poetry

@home_poetry and the cutting ones are very less like really i Didn't do anything till 15 jan,just did today.. It's like seeking nearest comfort
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home_poetry

@Approachableperson that's Where I suck nowadays.
            I can't help blame myseld for everything (not everything as you think Just friendship, family crisis, study stress)
            Well It's not like I'm hurting myself like you think. It's Just like skipping meals,staying up at night watching phone, scrolling reels in instagram till 2:37am under blanket even my eyes we're shutting off(yesterday incident)
            I Don't know what to do anymore.. I got scolded earlier,got cursed by mom(not unusual got used to it),nothing to say further I might diseapper for days,weeks or even months perhaps Don't know.
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Ana_2504

how's your health now? are you good?

home_poetry

@Ana_2504 T~T
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Ana_2504

@home_poetry aww man must be tough. Tuition always got the best of me back in school, I hated it but had no other choice. You'll get through it don't worry! And yes, Bangtan for life!! <3
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home_poetry

@Ana_2504 Hey yeah I'm good somehow, I did not get the books yet lol and still got so many tuitions to attend.. things are chaos you know but I got bangtan atleast T-T
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Approachableperson

Can u follow me?☺️

Approachableperson

@Approachableperson u too dear.
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home_poetry

@Approachableperson Thank You so much. Feel free to comment on the parts..too
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Approachableperson

@Approachableperson u are awesome nim. Loved ur story so far. Read ch 1. And found it emotional.  I will complete it asap.
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