honeylilax

I keep trying to write, but nothing ever turns out how i want.
          
          Plus id be petrified if somebody i know irl read it.
          
          I dont know...maybe i just have to persevere,  y'know?
          
          

I sometimes wish that i was in love. I used to be, but not anymore. I miss waking up in the middle of the night and wondering what they could be dreaming of. I miss the intoxicating thoughts of one singular being, instead of the silence left behind, reminding me that im alone, for now.
          
          But then i remember the positives of this situation! I could fall in love with anybody, at anytime! I could meet them today, or even tomorrow, but i won't know until i get up and talk to sombody. 
          
          I still have time.
          There is always something to look foreward to!