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little idea i had for reality finale when i first wrote it that i QUICKLY scrapped after i realized how fucking stupid it would be: I planned to mirror the first chapter to the finale chapter with the same intro format and everything and it turns out riley and maya were actors playing sabrina and rowan but i realized that it diminish the whole story line. also, literally same energy as when a book ends and then goes, “and it was all just a dream.......”
its also why the chapters are formatted like scripts but i decided to keep them either way bc it worked both ways since it still has that connection to the book summary that says “they no longer had a reason to hide behind their scripts” and the idea that both of them still felt the impulse to characterize themselves around one another as a force of habit even after the show ended.
( and its also the reason the chapters started with “r.” because at some point i planned to make the pov switch to riley without readers realizing it until it clicked at the finale )
but anyway, i figured rowans dilemma as to what truly is assessable to her, and her internal struggle to unbind her fantasies from what she thinks she deserves based on what her conscience deems was probably more than enough in itself to end on a good note.