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what if i drop an actual book and not a fanfic? hi im back lmao

hello everybody. after my almost year long hiatus, and completely giving everything up, i am back! and i’ve noticed a lot more of you than there was originally! 
          
          so welcome! and i’m so sorry that you guys are still reading the stories i wrote when i was 14/15. maybe i might edit some things or write some new things? i’m not 100% back yet fully. 
          
          i just wanna test things out!
          
          <3

after 6 long years of multiple stories (now completed, incomplete, rewritten, or forever lost) i have made a decision (considering the fact i’ve already been MIA for months now) that i will officially being throwing in my hat. 
          
          it doesn’t mean i’ll be gone forever. i might pop in here or there to write a chapter or a new book if i feel inspired, but if i’m being honest, i haven’t felt inspired in months. 
          
          it’s like all of the creativity has left my brain. i feel brain dead most of the time. i used to love writing, it was my favorite pass time to escape reality. i was also 12 years old at the time and had a high imagination as most do but i find my self always imagining, like an unhealthy coping mechanism. 
          
          i love too easily because i always expected my love life to be like my characters, in a sense. it wasn’t good on my mental health. 
          
          i don’t think i will ever find the motivation to write again, but who knows. maybe i’ll be listening to that one song or watching that one episode. and maybe, just maybe, the wheels will start turning in my head again.
          
          sincerely,
          
          a young woman who i hope will find her light one day.

i haven’t really had the best time with life lately. i’m sorry for going MIA for months at a time and then writing a chapter or two and then going MIA all over again. i’m trying to break this cycle, i love writing and i miss having the energy to be able to write for days on end. it just sucks being an adult :// i have no time for anything anymore. everything is just falling apart.
          
          i’m trying, that’s all that matters tho, i’m trying.

me? completely having no energy to do anything? oopsie 

here’s an update on where i’ve been and what i’ve been doing:
          
          so for the past three months i’ve been looking for a job. it was difficult, it was either i wasn’t hired due to my lack of experience or they just would never answer back. i fell into a bad depression. i felt hopeless, i was just always sad. i’m now on week 2 of my new job! there are some days i don’t enjoy it due to rude customers but i love most of the people i work with! they’re understanding, everyone basically has the same story, they understand when i need a minute. i think it’s because before i never really talked to anyone but this has really opened me up and made me more comfortable around new people! more confident to ask questions and more confidence to stand up for myself and not cower. i have more exciting news that i currently can’t share at the moment but i will very soon! i finally feel happy and less isolated from the world! this is the first time im actually being an adult, i’ve always been isolated since i was a kid. also i will be going to college next school year! 
          
          expect more updates about what’s happening at the moment and more updates on my stories as well! 
          
          i love all of you thank you so much for sticking with me throughout all of my bad times and good ones!
          
          i would not be alive today if i didn’t find purpose with my life and these past few weeks, i found my purpose and calling. 

remember when one of my “friends” exposed my wattpad account to all of my class… ahh good times 

sorry for going MIA, im manic as frick rn so expect updates my babies

thank you so much for 10k reads on Walkers, i’m just so baffled 

Just stumbled across your profile and had to say that your profile pic is GIVING ME LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!! ;)!!!